" When I saw you for the first time, I knew I won't forget about you easily. And I was right, in those years there was no day or night I haven't thought of you. You are the one who lights my life up, and I would be lost without you."
" My beautiful Mahnaz, I have missed you so much." Ahmed said as he kissed my forehead and I sat on his lap on his terrace. I haven't seen him for a long time as he was busy with state jobs, but he was always writing me poems and sending them.
" We have missed you too." I said to him and placed his hand on my belly which was quite big because I was in final months of pregnancy.
" I can't wait for the day we meet our little one." Ahmed said as he couldn't hide his smile.
" I made this for you." Ahmed gave me a little butterfly.
" It's so beautiful." I said to him as I took it in my hands. I knew he did it alone and that made it even more special to me, as Ahmed was really good in making of jewerly.
" I had a dream, Ahmed. I had a dream that I saw the throne that is standing here in your chambers. I saw a baby on the throne, and everything around the throne was covered in blood." I said to him as I must said my dream to someone. I always believed dreams have hidden message inside it.
" Maybe you have a nightmare about fights for the throne. That is what usually I have. I am afraid they will remove me from the throne and put Mustafa on it. I am afraid of that." Ahmed said and he wasn't really comfortable with this.
" That leads you to think that you should kill Mustafa, am I right?" I asked him.
" Yes. My Valide forces me to do that. She thinks they will kill me very soon and I'm afraid of it. I am the one who broke the law. I changed the law. What if that changing of law will only make things worser for me?" Ahmed said and I could see sadness in his eyes.
" Mustafa is still an innocent child. If I was you, I wouldn't kill him, but I would take power from Safiye Sultan. She influences everything a lot. You should keep an eye on Halime, but alone she can do nothing. She can't put Mustafa on the throne without Safiye. " I said to him and stopped for a moment.
" One day your children will be thankful to you that you made this law, because they won't have to kill their own brothers." I said to him as I was also afraid for future of each one of us.
" I hope you are right, my sunshine. It is always more easy to me when I talk with you. You always advise me. You aren't like everyone else around here. You don't think only of yourself, you have heart and you want only good." Ahmed said and touched my hair gently.
" Only thing I want is that you are feeling good and safe. When you feel bad, I feel bad too. I love you with my whole heart." I said to him and kissed him once again.
Later that day I was spending time in Harem and talked with girls which were all jealous of me. They all wanted to be Sultan's favourite, and after I came to Harem, no one of them has spent a night with him. Not even Kosem. That was the thing I was happiest about.
I was sitting in Harem together with girls who were looking for the whole time at my belly. I knew my baby is coming very soon. At that moment someone came into Harem.
" Why haven't you raised and bowed to me?" Mahfiruze said as she came into Harem and all of the girls bow to her except me. I couldn’t even stand up alone because my belly was big.
" Why should I bow to you?" I asked her while I continued to sit and didn't care about her presence here.
" I am mother of Şehzade Osman, and I am a Sultana now. You are still a slave and you should bow to me." Mahfiruze said proudly with her head raised. All the concubines were afraid of her, but I wasn't.
" I am also going to become Sultana very soon, so I won't bow to you, as I don't already now." I sarcastically smiled to her while I touched my belly and I could see she is really angry on me.
" You are still a slave so you must bow to me, maybe you are carrying a daughter. What will you do then?" Mahfiruze fake smiled to me.
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" No matter if I am a slave still, at least Sultan Ahmed loves me unlike you." I stood up and came closer to her and told her in her face. Mahfiruze just raised her head on me and looked at me very angrily.
" You should still bow to me because I am a Sultana. I don't care if you are pregnant. I am mother of the heir to the throne." she said proudly to me and looked at all other concubines who were jealous of her.
At that moment, I looked upside and saw Valide Handan Sultan standing at the Balcony of Harem and I could see she can see us, so I had perfect plan what to do.
" No matter he is the eldest, that doesn't mean he will ascend the throne. What does that even mean to you when Sultan Ahmed didn't even ask for you since you gave a birth? He doesnt care for you." I said to her quietly so Handan couldn't hear me. I did it on purpose to annoy her.
Mahfiruze was crazy and at that moment she slapped me across my face. It didn't hurt even, but I faked it hurts and I fell down on the floor on purpose to look like she slapped me hardly.
I continued to lay on the floor pretending I am really hurt and after few seconds I could hear aghas annonucing Valide Handan Sultana is entering the Harem.
" Mahfiruze, what is this? How you dare to do this to pregnant woman?" Handan yelled on Mahfiruze.
I tried to stand up, but I acted like it really hurts me.
" Sultana... I am sorry, I can't stand up... Everything... Hurts me..." I faked to seem like I hurted my head.
" Take her to ambulance, do whatever for baby and her to be fine. Mahfiruze, come with me in my chambers right now." Handan said as she seemed really worried for me.
