The kid in Azkaban

Chapter I DONT EVEN FUCKING KNOW ANYMORE

Hello my beautiful dandelions, I hope I blow you away with this chapter...... NO PUN INTENDED. 😝

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I ran out the door, I don't know where I was going. I ran down the road as a hand grabbed my shoulder. It was Severus. "Alex look at me." He demanded. I turned my head slowly. "We have to plan something out, we can't just go with you not thinking straight...." He mumbled. "Severus you don't understand! I didn't even know I had a mother....." "I understand but you don't want to get yourself killed."

I nodded my head and slowly walked back inside. Defeated. I walked up the steps to my room I'd be sharing. I had to share it with Hermione and Ginny. We got in the room and turned the lights off. "Night."

"Mmm." I hummed in response. I rolled over on my side and thought about what my mother would look like. Probably pretty, most mothers are right? I mean I wouldn't know I've never really had parents.....

The closest thing I've ever had to a caretaker is Drake and Bella. Drake, well he did things the I wouldn't like to repeat. Bella....she just fucked me over.

I finally drifted off to sleep.

I woke up in the morning a bit sore from everything. From life maybe? Is this what depression is? I just don't see a point in living anymore.

I shook those thoughts out of my head and stood up. I went to the bathroom and got ready for the day. I went downstairs, to see Molly making breakfast with Hermione. The order was planning something to get my mother back.

I went outside, that's when I felt something enter my mind. I fell to the ground on my knees. "Crucio!" An image of what looked to be my mom, being tortured by the man himself, Voldemort. "Mom!" I screamed. But she couldn't hear me. "MOM!" I screamed even louder, my voice cracking and hoarse.

Tears were streaming down my face as I watched him torture my mom. "Take me! TAKE ME INSTEAD!" I screamed.

"Alex!" Someone was shaking me. I stood up and started to panic. Someone had taken me back to the living room in the order. Severus was sitting on the couch looking at me with concern. My hair turned an icy blue as my whole body became numb.

Tears were streaming down my face. "It-." Sob. "Should have-." Sob. "Been me." I screamed. "He's going to kill her." I whispered. "HE'S GOING TO KILL HER!" I yelled, my voice shaking uncontrollably. My hair now turning red as my hair was on fire.

By now everyone had came down to see what was going on. I sat down on the couch next to Severus. I put my head in my hands. My fingers clawing at my scalp. "I fucked up." I mumbled. Severus awkwardly put a hand on my back trying to calm me down. My hair turning a sad purple, distressed color.

Hermione sat on the other side of me with her hand on my knee. "We'll find her." She whispered. I nodded my head solemnly.

Time skip back to school*********

I didn't care about Christmas, I didn't come out of my room. I didn't accept presents, I didn't accept anything. I never celebrated it, so why start now?

I arrived at hogwarts. I ignored Umbridge as I walked past her and into the griffindoor dorms. My hair always turning my color of my emotions. Sometimes it was annoying.

Blonde- happy/excited

Icy blue- sad and extremely emotional

Dark purple- distressed/ frustrated

Red- angry

Green- nervous

Black- fear

White-bored

Orange- annoyed

(Hair turns pink when feeling more than one emotion. It is the side effects of my element powers.)

My hair a bright orange as I walked through the portrait hole and made my way to my bed. My hands and hair, carrying light flames on them. I skipped dinner and sat on my bed, waiting for everyone to come back.

I kept planning a way to get my mother back. I found myself pacing in front of the fireplace, my hair purple. I zoned out, completely out of touch with reality. People began to walk in but I didn't notice. I kept pacing until I felt a hand on my shoulder.

Harry. I stared at him. "You can't keep doing this Alex, it's scaring us." I shook my head in frustration. "No-. NO, we have to find a way!" I demanded.

"We're doing everything we can Alex, Dumbledoor, and Snape." I shook my head. "You need to get some sleep." Hermione whispered. My hair turned orange as I quietly followed her to my bed. "Try not to think about it that much."

But I couldn't help it..... She's all I dreamed of.