Babysitters (a JeMik fanfic)

30: February 28

*sabog confetti*

Hi. 

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THOMAS’ POV

I miss Ara.

Simula nung tiinigil ko ang kung ano man ang meron samin, nababaliw na ko sa kakaalala sa kanya. Kung masyado ko ba syang nasaktan, kung medyo naging agresibo ako. Hindi ko na alam. Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. Sinusunod ko man ang mga sinasabi sakin ni daddy tungkol sa magaganap naming kasalan ni Arra, nakay Ara naman ang isip ko.

At tingnan nyo nga naman kung san ako dinala ng kabaliwan ko—sa tapat ng dorm nina Ara.

For all I know, sya nalang ang graduate na pero hindi pa nagmo-move out and since it’s a weekday, she’s alone for sure. Pero hindi ko alam kung nandito ba naman sya. But my conscience keeps telling me to go in and see her once again. Parang hindi ako kakalma kung hindi ko sya makikita.

At kahit pinagbabawalan na ko ng isip ko, patuloy pa rin ako sa paglakad. Binuksan ko ang di naman nakalock na pinto pati na rin ang pinto ng kwarto nya.

And she was there.

Sleeping so soundly. She looked so innocent na parang ayaw nyang masali sa problema ng mundo kaya dinaan nya nalang sa tulog. But as I tried to tuck in some of her hair behind her ear, I noticed crooked traces of lines from her eyes all the way down her chin.

She was crying.

By the sight of her I started tearing up. I know it’s not quite manly but she’s the love of my life. And this is how I feel when my only world crumbles. This is how I feel when I see Ara getting hurt. And what’s worse was that it was because me.

Thomas: I’m sorry…

For a moment I was blank. Hindi ko alam kung pano ko mapapawi ang lungkot at sakit sa mukha nya. Pero kahit alam ko hindi ko naman magagawa. Because I’m trapped inside a situation I never wanted to be in. At ang duwag ko kasi hindi ko naman sinusubukang kumawala.

I just stared at her as time passes by. And as the clock ticks, representing the seconds I’ve been here, I thought of something I could do. For her to be reminded of my love.

I grabbed a guitar from across her room—the guitar I left in here two years ago na hiningi nya sakin—and tried to play.

You and I

We’re like fireworks and symphonies exploding in the sky

With you, I’m alive

It’s like missing pieces of my heart they finally collide

So stop time right here in the moonlight

‘Cause I don’t ever wanna close my eyes

Without you, I feel broke

Like I’m half of a whole