𝕋𝕙𝕒𝕥'𝕤 𝕃𝕚𝕗𝕖, ℝ𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥? ✩ The Society ↠(Grizz Visser) ↞

Twelve;

(Grizz POV)

I woke up with a pounding headache and burry vision. I looked at my surroundings and realized I was not in my room or somewhere in Harry's house as I expected.

What the fuck happened. Am I in Allies room? How did I get here? And why does my arm hurt so mu-?

Oh.

I rolled over on to my side. I didn't notice how tired I actually was until I started to move. Not only did my head hurt but both my arms killed like a bitch. I pulled the covers off the front of my body to see I wasn't in my shirt from last night. I was in a big black long sleeved shirt that didn't really fit that well.  I looked over to my side to check the alarm clock. 11:47. Not the latest I've ever slept but surly is early for a night after drinking.

The weirdest part was the lumpiness of the sleeves. I pulled one sleeve back and saw big white wrappings around my wrist all the way up my forearm.

Oh fuck. No. No. No. This can't be happening ur kidding me.

I quickly held up my other arm pulling the sleeve back. I saw the same thing instead this one had blood seeping through the bandages.

I brought my hands up to my face in disbelief of what I was seeing. I let out a silent fuck before sitting up in the bed. Which wasn't the brightest idea because I got so light headed I thought I was going to pass out. The room spun for a moment so I decided to lay back down in the comfy sheets. Thoughts were racing through my head.

Did Luke do this to me? Is he the only one that still knows. No, that can't be. I'm in Allies bed. Why the fuck am I in Allies bed out of all places. Maybe just she knows now. That can't be that bad. She's understanding and knows what it feels like to be in a dark place. I shouldn't worry. I doubt she's going to tell anyone.

My thoughts quickly came to a halt as I heard a knock on the door. My head shot to face it wondering who was going to walk in.

"Grizz are you awake?" I could tell it was Luke's voice. I didn't say anything. Anything I wanted to say was caught in my throat. Once he saw I was in fact awake he walked quickly over to the side of the bed. "Hey man how you feeling? Do you want me to get anything? Water? Some food? More pillows anything at all just tell me."

I held up my hand to get him to stop rambling. I'm pretty sure he got the message because with that motion he stopped talking.

"No Luke I'm fine, I'm just a little light headed." I said rubbing my eyes

"Oh ok umm.. let me, let me get you a glass of water an-" he stated to stand up heading back to the door.

"Luke I said I'm fine just sit down ok." He made his way back to the bed sitting at the end of it. He had a sad expression in his eyes. They looked blood shot with dark circles under them. It looked like he'd been crying on top of not sleeping at all. That's when it hit me. Seeing the look on his face made me remember everything that had happened. It was a little blurry but I got the gist of it. I remembered him and Will carrying me out of the woods. I remembered laying on the table feeling like I was about to finally be gone for good. I remembered the burning sensation running though my body as Gordie put the hydrogen peroxide on my arms. I remembered almost everything. And I hated myself even more.

Why would you put your friends though that. You just looking for attention. Making them all worry about you. Absolutely pathetic. This is all on you. You did this to them. You made them cry, you made them scared, and most of all, you made them take care of you like you a helpless little baby. That's what you are. A baby.

My mouth hung open not able to say anything. I can't believe what I had just done. The one thing I didn't want anyone to know everyone knows now.

I bet you the whole town knows what happened. How you were weak and couldn't finish the job.