𝕋𝕙𝕒𝕥'𝕤 𝕃𝕚𝕗𝕖, ℝ𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥? ✩ The Society ↠(Grizz Visser) ↞

One;

Grizz (POV)
I was always supposed to be the one that always held it together. The one person that wouldn't go crazy is something bad happened. The one person that always had an idea on how to fix things. And the one person that knew exactly what to do in the right moment.

I mean I used to think that. I really did It's just; how can you keep believing it's true after all the shit that has happened to me in the last few weeks. I can't talk to any of my friends about it. Luke would just blow it off and find a different topic to complain about. Clark would just make some dumb remark about it. Jason would just say to smoke all my feelings away. That part worked for a while but I ended up more of a mess then I did before. I guess you can't really run from your emotions.

I was sitting down on the bridge railing looking at where the train tracks used to go for miles. Now they just stop at a pit of Forest right at the edge. A cool breeze blew through the air as I sat there barely moving. The bitter air froze my finger tips and made my ears and nose go numb.

Numb was a feeling that I had gotten used too. Even when it wasn't cold out side did I feel this cold empty feeling. It's like nothing that touches me are talks to me can bring the feeling back. The feeling has gotten progressively worse as the days have gone by, I just can't bring myself to do anything about it.

I felt a tear fall down my cheek letting it sit there. Right as I was about to let some more out, I heard a car pull up and stop behind me. I quickly whipped my face with my hand making sure who ever it was didn't notice that I had been crying. When I thought that my face looked somewhat normal I turned my head around to see who it was.

"Grizz what the hell are you doing here?" A worried Luke said as he sat next to me on the railing of the bridge. He made sure to be cautious not wanting to accidentally slip and fall.

"Just thinking" I said looking down at my hands. Luke had sad expression on his face. This was because he knew that this was the place that I would always go to when something was wrong. Now a days I end up here almost everyday.

"Your eyes are red and puffy, what's that about." Luke questioned me.

"Just the cold. The cold wind is making my eyes tear up." I blurted out.

Luke was kinda set back by that remake. Only because he knew I was lying. "Ok... well. What are you thinking about then?"

It took me a second to figure out what part I would say. I couldn't tell him that I felt empty, numb, or worthless. He would just make fun of me. I definitely couldn't tell him that moments before he got here I had been wishing the bridge was higher up so I could just jump and not have to face the consequences in the morning. So I made up the first  dumb thing that came to mind  just so I would have to tell him what I was really thinking about.

"Life I guess. Or at least what is left from it. I just don't understand what we're doing anymore."

"What's there not to understand?" I could tell Luke was getting a-little confused.

"I don't know I couldn't tell you if I wanted too."

"Grizz you can always talk to me about anything. I've not only been your team mate for the past four years but also your best friend if you couldn't remember."

"Luke of course I remember I just don't know what Im supposed to say." I was starting to get irritated by what he was saying.

"Dude it's a simple question. I don't know why your making it so hard. Is there something wrong? Did I do anything?"

"I'm FINE ok. You didn't do anything and neither did anyone else. Just stop interrogating me"

"Grizz your not fine. I know you. You always come to this exact bridge when there's there's something wrong. You even did it even when our parents were still here."

"Just fuck off Luke. When is say there's nothing wrong I mean it. And if there was I would tell you." If I was being completely honest I wouldn't tell him. "Why are you here anyway?"

"I was here looking for you. Allie wanted all the guard back at the house to talk to us about something. I figured you would be here cause of how you've been acting lately."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

Luke looked at me as if it was a dumb question.

"What I mean is you are acting like the old Harry. Not wanting to do anything. Smoking bud when ever you can. You won't even come hang with me and the guys any more. I'm starting to get worried about you."

I didn't say anything back to him. What was I supposed to say. The same thing I've been asking myself for a while now. All I did was slide my legs back over the other side of the bridge and stood up. I walked over to Luke's car without him and sat in the passengers seat. I saw Luke do the same thing. He opened the car door and sat down. He turned his head over and looked at me as I stared out the window.

"Your sure there nothing you need to talk about?" Luke asked one last time.

I didn't even move my head from the spot it was in but muffled out two quit words.

"Just drive."

With that Luke put the car into drive and started heading to Allies house.

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I hope you liked the first chapter! This whole story was made around one thought I had so I'm trying to figure out how I'm gunna get there. Please comment or give the story a star. That would be really helpful.

Anyway... that was the first chapter and I hope you keep reading cause I have some good ideas planed for the rest of the book.