𝕋𝕙𝕒𝕥'𝕤 𝕃𝕚𝕗𝕖, ℝ𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥? ✩ The Society ↠(Grizz Visser) ↞

Nine;

Grizz (POV)
(Major warnings in this chapter so please don't read if you are sensitive)

The house was completely packed. Everyone in the town had all piled into one big house and partied like there was no tomorrow. I was having a great time. I felt like this was exactly what I needed to get away from my head. Dancing, jumping around, and talking to all my friends made me forget about all the mistakes that I had made the past couple of days. I felt like I was the old me again.

People were crowded around me and Jason in a big circle watching as we were shot gunning beers. Everyone was chanting 'CHUG CHUG' in the background waiting to see if Jason could finally beat and finish first. After around 8 different rounds Jason just couldn't do it.

"Fuck man when am I ever going to beat you." Jason grabbed my shoulder putting all his weight on me. Clark walked up behind Jason nudged him slightly.

"You kidding me? No one ever beats Grizz. Hell I've tried too for years and never been able to do it. He's like a bottomless pit!" Jason shook me as I laughed at his remark.

"Damn straight boys." I said back.

At this point I was definitely not seeing straight. I had no clue how many drinks I'd had and just kept going. Every drink someone handed me I drank it. Same thing went with what ever someone gave me, I took it.

I was really fucked up. I hadn't been like this since the whole mental breakdown thing. Honestly I kinda like it though. I miss it. I know it isn't a good thing to miss but I'm not going to tell myself it is.

Me and Jason were walking outside to the pool laughing at a joke neither of us got. We both had some drink in our hands and would continuously sip on it through the conversation. We were talking about how some girl got up on the kitchen table and started dancing only to fall right off of it. We both thought it was the funniest thing in our drunken state.

We both sat down on one of Harry's many pool chairs and looked at all the people swimming in the pool. There were a few people making out in there and then there were just some people flat out doing backflips repeatedly.

As I was taking a sip of my beer I saw Sam out of the corner of my eye. He was sitting down with some guy by the hot tub and they were talking. I put my beer down and tried to get a closer look, but it was hard 'spying on someone when your not sober.

Sam looked so happy talking to this guy. How could he look so happy? He was smiling laughing and even giving him a nudge every now and then. I was confused on what was going on not understanding the situation I was looking at. Suddenly they both stopped taking and looked at each other dead in the eye. I could see Sam was slowly leaning in. The other guy closed his eyes and before I knew it they were kissing. I felt my heart sink the the bottom of my stomach watching this happen. My chest felt heavy and I couldn't breath. I tried swallowing but my through felt like there was a big ball inside of it. I could feel my eyes getting hot and a tear about to slip out. Jason looked over at me and saw my face. I couldn't take my eyes off of what was happening right in front of me.

"Hey dude are you ok? You look like your about to start crying." He said with a concerned look on his face.

"Yeah I-I just need to go inside for a sec." I didn't say anything after that but just ran off.

Sam didn't even see me when I ran inside. He was two busy smashing his face against some other guys. I couldn't handle this right now. I wasn't in the correct state of mind to see that. I bolted inside pushing past as many people as possible. My breathing started getting faster and I didn't really know where I was. I felt a burning sensation in my arm and in everywhere in my body. I grabbed my hair and was spinning around in circles. Everything looked like it was moving in slow motion. I could feel my heart beat racing through my whole body.