Forget Me Not

19.

I release the breath the I didn't know I was holding in when the song finishes. My face is soaked with tears. I press the play button again and listen to his voice over and over. I hug myself and try to comfort myself, just wishing that it was his arms around me.

Memories of our happy times flash in my mind, only making my heart hurt even more. I grip my chest not understanding why it was hurting so much. 

I reach out to grab my phone.

"Stop." I say to myself just as I was about to dial his number.

I was so frustrated. I kept telling myself to pick up the damn phone and call him, but I couldn't get myself to. I climb into bed and tried to get some sleep, hoping a new day would refresh my head.

Wrong.

The next morning, I felt even more empty when I woke up from Jungkook being in my dreams and realizing he's not laying next to me.

I force my dehydrated body from crying all night into the shower to get ready for work. On the way to ACE, I get a call from Big Hit.

"Hello?" I answered.

"You need to come in tomorrow to discuss the contract as it's coming to an end soon." The PR lady said.

"I'm busy tomorrow. Can we do it today instead? I can come in the afternoon." I try to negotiate.

"The boys just got back this morning. They need time to rest. Come in tomorrow." She ends the call abruptly.

"Bitch." I mutter.

Just as I was about to walk into ACE, it hit me. The guys are back from Busan already. I check the time on my phone. 7:25. My shift starts in 5 minutes.

I glance at Hyun Soo who's stacking cups behind the counter and then back at my phone.

"Fuck it." I say and make a swift 180, running towards a taxi.

I hop in and give him an address. I arrive there in fifteen minutes. Hyun Soo was blowing up my phone after I sent him a text saying I couldn't make it today.

I get off the elevator and head towards the unit that I've familiarized myself with lately.

I take a deep breath and ring the door bell. I wait there for a bit. Maybe he didn't hear it. I go to press it again, but before I can, the door swings open.

Jungkook stands in front of me in nothing, but grey sweatpants. His abs were glistening from the rising sun shining over it. His hair is a mess on his head, but he still looked fine as ever.

"What are you doing here?" A startled look on his face.

"I'm sorry. Did I wake you up?"

He shakes his head no and moves his body to the side to show the dumb bells laying on the floor. "I was working out."

"What's going on?"

I stand there. Unsure of why I was even here. I hesitated to open my mouth because I really didn't know what to say. I abandoned work and came here without a plan, without even knowing why I'm here. My feet just took me here. Every time I tried to open my mouth, it went dry. It opened and closed like a fish on land.

"Jade?"

"Do you wanna com-"

"I love you." I spit out.

Jungkook stares at me as if he couldn't believe what he was hearing. Like I had another head growing out of my neck.

"You what?"