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Concussed

I will never be able to explain the two brains in one.

It's not me.
It is me.

My soul is bright.
It is colourful & one of a kind.

But no one can understand the Jackle and Hyde that exists inside my mind.

Do you understand what a concussion can do to your mind?

Life is bright, but one hit to the head out goes the light.
One minute I can love you right.
But one hit and I lose my mind.
One minute I reflect on how beautiful the world is and I am so full of life.
But one hit and terror encompasses my entire life.
One hit & life is dreadful.
But see you, it takes you over slowly.
BANG

My brain is still bright.
But tomorrow the lightness inside will dim and dim and dim.
& then my mind becomes a terrifying storm in the night.

I go to sleep in love with the sun.
I wake up in dread from the internal storm that developed in my mind through night.

And the worse part?
It happens without consciousness in sight.
.............................................................................
I go to sleep in love with life.
I wake up alright.
Everyday my love for life becomes a little less.
The light in my mind dims.
And dims.
And dims.
And dims.
And dims.
And dims.
And fuck it all blends in.

I wake up one day and want to die.
FUCK
I'm concussed.