dazed ~ mileven

Chapter 5: The depression hour

a/n: will my motivation be gone tomorrow? absolutely so enjoy this while you can my lovelies

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Mike's forehead was rested against Els, tears streaming down both of their faces. They rocked together slowly.

"It'll be ok, it'll be ok, it'll be ok." Mike repeatedly whispered into her ear to help calm the both of them. El took a deep breath.

"I don't want you to go." She said looking up at him.

"I don't want to leave you." Mike said stroking her hair. El looked over at Jonathan and Nancy hugging.

"It'll be fine, we'll see each other soon ok." El said as Mike nodded.

"I love you." Mike kissed her forehead as she took a deep breath.

"I love you." They stood there for a moment longer and they said their final goodbyes. Will said goodbye to Mike and Nancy. El grabbed Will's hand as Mike and Nancy drove off. Will leaned into El

"Are you ok?" He whispered. She shook her head no

"No, but I will be. Eventually. I'm going to go call Max." She said walking back into the house. Will watched El walk in the house and followed along shortly after.

"How's she doing? How's Jonathan? How are you doing honey?" Joyce asked as she set down her glass. Will walked over to her and sat down next to his mother on the couch. He sighed as he leaned into the arm of the couch.

"I'm ok, sad but fine. I'm not sure how Jonathan is but he didn't look too good. El is... sad. She's calling Max right now." Joyce sighed as she put an arm around Will.

"I know this sucks sweetie but I promise it wont be permanent. We just needed some time away you know."

"Yeah, I know mom. We just miss everyone."

"I know honey." She pulled him into a hug as a tear rolled down his face.

"Max I don't know, i just really don't feel like talking about it right now. Can we talk about you? What's been going on?" El flopped down on her bed and waited for her friend to respond.

"Nothing has really been going on. It's been boring without you guys. Lucas and I keep fighting, i suppose we're broken up right now but it's not official i guess."

"I'm sorry Max, have you talked to him?"

"Not really, I don't feel like it, he's just been an ass lately."

"Yeah, we'll you know i'm here if you need anything."

"I know"

"Well, how's Steve and Robin?"

"Good, they got jobs at the video store. I haven't really seen them much around lately though. I saw Steve with Dustin the other day and we talked for a while. He's still got the same dumb humor." El chuckled as she rolled over to her other side.

"I miss all of you."

"We miss you too. At least you got to see Mike and Nancy for a while."

"Yeah, it was nice."

"Just nice?"

"What else do you want me to say?" El said laughing slightly.

"Oh i don't know something like Oh Max it was great and wonderful and i'm so in love blah blah blah."

"I thought that was implied." El said laughing along with Max.

"Will you do me a favor Max?"

"Of course."

"Will you make sure that Mike does just stay in his room all the time anymore. Just make sure he gets out of the house, it's not healthy for him to be alone all the time. I'm just worried about him."

"Of course, as insufferable as he is, i'll do it for you."

"Thank you Max really."

"Anytime" There was suddenly a silence.

"I'm sorry El i have to go, Lucas is here."

"Oh ok, keep me updated. Talk soon?"

"Talk soon. Bye loser."

"Bye." El sighed as she walked over to her desk and hung up the phone. She looked over to the right of her phone to the picture she has of Mike that his mother gave her. She walked over and sat in her chair when a soft knock came from the door.

"Come in."

"Hey sweetie, I just thought i'd check on you." Joyce said sitting next to her.

"How are you?" El just shrugged and looked down at her feet. She hadn't even realized that she was crying.

"Oh honey." Joyce pulled her in for a hug. She just started sobbing into Joyce's shoulder.

"I just miss him already. I know he just left but it hurts. The nightmares only stop when he's here."

"I know i know i know, i'm so sorry. I wish i could do something to help your nightmares." Joyce said her heart breaking.

"I know, they'll have to stop eventually." She sighed and pulled away from Joyce. They sat there for a moment in peaceful silence.

"Mike are you going to talk at all on the way home?" Nancy asked looking at her brother sulking looking out the window.

"Maybe. I just don't feel like talking right now."

"Ya know Mike, you're going to have to get used to not being around El all the time. I know it's going to be hard but you can't just sulk all the time. You can be sad just not every second."

"Don't you think i know that Nancy. I've been trying, i've been trying since the day she left. Do you think i want to be sad all the time, I don't. I cant help it, i need her." Nancy just sighed as Mike crossed his arms.

"I know it hurts Mike, my boyfriend moved away too but we have to learn to deal for the time being."

"Whatever."

*A few hours later*

Mike walked through the door of his house and said hello to his parents and Holly and walked up to his room. He threw his bag on the floor and jumped into bed. Not even a second later the doorbell rung and his mom yelled and asked him to get it. He groaned and got up to answer the door.

"SURPRISE. We're taking you to the arcade." Dustin yelled. Mike, Lucas, Steve, and Robin were standing behind them.

"Are they babysitting?" Mike asked pointing to Steve and Robin.

"Shut up little shit be grateful. We can't just let you wallow all day."

"Well too bad." Mike said stepping back.

"Nope not happening, i promised El that you wouldn't stay inside all the time so we're taking you out let's go." Max said pulling Mike outside.

*A couple hours later*

"So did you have fun?" El asked on the other line.

"I did shockingly. It would've been better with though. God I miss you already."

"Same. We'll see each other soon though I promise."

"Promise?"

"Promise."

"El i'm sorry Dustin wants to call Suzie. Can i call you tomorrow?" Mike said very disappointed.

"Yeah of course."

"I'll see you soon."

"Soon"

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did i have a manic episode and dye my hair black....

yes

do i regret it......

i don't know