Bullied by 5sos

Chapter 11

We were watching the video once more before we posted it. after w posted it we laid in his bed cuddling.

Our date kept replaying in my head. Ashton's friends with Luke. Luke doesn't like me. If ash is friends with Luke he is most likely friends with Michael and Calum who absolutely hate me. If Ashton's friends hate me then does Ashton?

'He doesn't even like you' the voice in my head said to me.

My wrist started to itch.
"Ash I need to go" I said grabbing all of my stuff. I felt my eyes starting to water.
"Wait what are you doing" he said and jumped up from his spot
"I need to go" I said looking at the ground hoping he doesn't see my watering eyes
"Why Em talk to me" he said and took my guitar away from my hand
"No" I said as I grabbed my guitar and ran out the door.

*****TRIGGER WARNING*****

I ran through the door of my house and up the stairs. I put my guitar down on my bed and locked my self in my bathroom.

I rummaged through my cabinets until I found my razor. I sat down and rolled up my sleeves. I began slashing cuts into my wrist then onto my thighs as tears rolled down my cheeks.

I heard banging on the door but I just kept making cuts until the door swung open revealing Ashton.

"Get out" I screamed with tears still streaming down my face.
"Baby what did you do to your beautiful skin"
I laughed "beautiful I'm not beautiful I'm the farthest from beautiful you can be"
"No baby don't say that. You are so beautiful" I could see the tears welling in his eyes as he looked at me covered in blood.

"Why" he said barley audible.
"No one loves me" I whispered.
Ashton got up pacing around the bathroom.
"Ash please say something" I said sobbing
"God dammit Emma I love you I love you so much Emma Catherine Smith I am in love with you" he screamed.
" I-I love you t-too" I said shaking.

He came over and cradled me in his arms "shhhhhh baby lets get you cleaned up okay baby I love you so much" he said and kissed my forehead.

He picked me up and placed me on the counter. I just looked at the puddle of my blood on the floor along with my razor as he cleaned all of my cuts.

"Emma I need you to give me your razors"
"No please I can't"
"Please Em for me I love you so much and I don't want you hurting yourself. your so beautiful"
"Okay" I said as I got the razor I recently used and the razor I just used and gave it to him.
"Are these all?"
"Yes"
He smiled and flushed them down the toilet and kissed me. Little does he know those aren't my only razors.

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AHHHHH another update hope you liked this chapter and I am starting to put the trigger warning at the beginning of triggering scenes