You are mine

Revelations and truth

I closed my eyes and I started to cry , I was shivering , maybe more than that scared to  meet his eyes.I dont know why I started to feel terrible , his silence was bothering me.Why was he silent? I slowly dared to meet his eyes but as soon I opened my eyes , I was terrified , his expressions told it all, he was fuming with anger , instant regret hit me , I wanted to take back all the things that I had said to him..the next thing he did was sat on the bed with a thud enough for all the rose petals to ruin in and fly away ..I did not dare to utter a word. He screamed " You have ruined everything Aashna..everything." Aashna knew what was coming - A REJECTION. She stood up and said "Are we okay?" " His eyes were all red with anger he went towards her and shaked her a little by saying " are you even in your senses? You ruined it all Idiot girl" I was terrified , he would not mind hitting me hard ..i feared. He started throwing things here and there in anger and then  suddenly he fell on his knees held his head with his hands and started to cry ..you know its hard for me to live without you , I am addicted to you Aashna , you ruined it Aashna ..you ruined it he said while crying . Wait What? Is he even in his senses??? I have just proposed him and he???!! Oh god , I regret saying everything...but why is he crying, I cant see him cry . 

She went towards him , sat on the bed infront of him and caressed his hair and said " Dont cry, I am here , nothing is ruined ." He looked at me and hugged me , I hugged him back and even tighter .Not on the earth I have any idea of what is going on. We both were crying, I had a reason but what about him?  He parted the hug , took my hand in his hands  and said " Sorry for being this aggressive but uk what you are my whole fucking world Aashna , I cant think of anything except you ,you say I changed you but you made me a better and happy person in ways which you dont even know.I know how I lived without you , without your cuddles and hugs all those weeks , for the first time I felt guilty for making out with someone .You wanna know why was I behaving rude to you all of a sudden because I had started to realize that my heart needed you , it needed you maybe more than a friend and I was never ready to accept that I can be in love , the day when Shanaya asked me to makeout with her , my heart instantly denied and I knew why but I  did not want to change myself, I wanted to be the way I was a bad guy, and who were you to come abruptly in my  life and change me into a happy person , I was the way I was the bad and aggressive one. That's why I went away from you so that I could literally go away from you but my heart the more i went away , the more it thought for you . Only I know the pain of not being around you while seeing you with someone else and only I know the peace I get being  in your arms and I dont want you to go away from me , I dont  want to feel that pain again, I dont want to loose you he said while looking down and he straight away hugged me , he was on his knees and I was on the bed so he hugged me and hid his face down my chest and near my stomach and cried while I was locked by his arms around my waist , I rubbed his back to console him.  I kissed on his forehead and slowly said" Are you not ready for this ?" He slowly parted and said " I am so- sorry but I think I will never be ab- able too" "Wait !What? but ..I stopped not knowing what to speak..had he just confessed indirectly or what was it.. he said " Yes, I wont and I am sorry there is this one thing which you dont know about me" I was all silent. "You know what you are my world , you are my peace and I agree  to that but  you  easily became mine infact  tum ab bhi meri hi ho par I cant be yours ..nahi ban sakta mai tumhara ."  " par kyunnnn" I said holding his collar and almost crying by looking down" because that part of mine is already some one else's , and I am going to be hers forever and even if I try I cant , My heart was is and will always belong to her he said looking down , trying to avoid an eye contact . My world fell apart , he already loved someone then whyy??why did he come this close , why did he act like he  had feelings for me..why?? I wanted to cry but for now the most important was his past and that girl. 

"You know Aashna the bold Sanket which you are seeing now , was once a guy who was feared everyone and everything and used to get bullied by almost everyone. I was not more than a dhakkan back then , but there came an angel who taught me to not fear anyone, she taught me to love myself and live .Just like you say I taught you these, she was the one who changed me completely, Unnav and TK were always there with me and made sure than I feel loved , but she was different. Slowly we fell for each other, in most of the cases the guys are the ones who protect their girls , but I always failed to do it ,(he was crying like anything but I did not stop him) instead she was the one who protected me ,she always had my back ,she was strong , beautiful and bold and I loved her alot.We dated for 3 years , but one day we were out on  a date , we were far from the city , we wanted peace so we went there on that silent calm and deserted beach but later  some goons entered there , it was their hiding spot and they thought we got to know about them or spying them  so  they threatened us and  started to harass her, they saw me and I was terrified, even though she was the one who was being harassed , she did not cry, she was in their grip but she was trying to get herself out and I stood their crying like a mad idiot (He cried more and facepalmed himself) She was fearless, she told me to stay strong  while she tried to get out, I finally gathered some courage and hit one of them with a big stone and threatened them that if they wont leave her I will call the police  , the moment I did it, they pointed a gun towards me, she shouted " No, please , dont do anything to him, you want me, do whatever you want , but please leave him" she said while tears ran from our eyes... they told me to leave otherwise they would shoot both of us, me being the most terrified one no being a fattu a clear fattu ...ran away from there leaving my love in their hands, but I ran to the police station , I got back with police but it was late , they were no where to be seen , i cant even explain my condition  right now...Days, months, weeks passed , the police searched for  her but she was no where to be found, the only info we could get was that  the goons who had kidnapped her where some wanted criminals and they had international contacts , this was the moment where even the police lost hope and the case was closed. That was the day when I lost my love, my life, my soul , my heartbeat and my Anu. He stopped for a second. I was all numb , I had no words , I wanted to hug him for being strong but at the same time stay away from him because he still had someone else in his heart and he indirectly cheated on me.

"You know Aashna, after that incident I was no more a happy Sanket, I became aggressive, cold I started to gym I built a body, I never fell in love, I made out with a 100 girls and enjoyed doing that  , I became a bad guy and was used to live like this until you came and changed me again, but I am not ready to commit because I know my Anu will come back , I am going to wait for her till I die but now that you know all this , you will leave me na? He said looking at me angrily .Oh god, how can  he change his emotions this fast... Speak up, you will now leave me na?? He said shaking me , I was numb enough to not respond . I knew this was going to happen, he said and started to throw the things here and there angrilly, I knew it , this was my fault, I should not have come his close to you, I should have stayed away from you, now that I am used to you , you know that with you my life my peace had come back to me , I was enjoying my life but now you will leave me again..I knew it ..why are you doing this to me ?? ha?? whyyy?? See, I dont want you to leave me ok please..I told you na how much you mean to me , I got my soul back with you and you cant leave me like this..so you not leaving na? How can he change his emotions so fast, he is not in a stable mental state, so wasnt I and this was all I could think off ... .I am taking your silence as a Yes, huh this is better, you are going to stay with me like this forever , till the end he came and hugged me as tightly as he could , I did not hug him back but instead said " Sanket....bye lol

 So this was it for this chapter...

Now that you got to know about his past and his answer what do you think will she say??Will Aashna agree to be friends with him in this situation??

Spoiler : Dating? ( ab guess karte raho kon kisko) you will get to know withing the next 1 r 2 chapters.

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Thankyou..