You are mine

Why is this so Irresistible?

We kissed. Yes, this was not our first time doing it but it still seemed one , he definitely is a good kisser , his mere presence makes my heart go 🦋🦋🦋 and without thinking much I let myself sink in him , I felt my brain shutting  and my heart floating to be his as inserted his hands inside my top and  kept rubbing his warm hands on my waist , his palm on my waist moving and rubbing my skin at the same time , only his warmth can send such shivers to my body  I wondered .With each passing second pulling me towards him so that he could take the whole of me . Seeing his intensity I too slid my fingers to the back of his neck , my palm on his cheeks and jawline while while fingers near and behind his ears , caressing it while our mouths moving in sync , even with eyes closed I could sense him blush and smile in the kiss and kissing me more intensely . I dont know after how many seconds or minutes we parted but I wanted it more , I could never be contented with what I'll get of him / from him , I'll always want more and more . 

We parted from the kiss but still were standing a few inches apart from each other , and this time I pulled him by his collar and raised my toes a bit higher to match his lips and here we went kissing each other more passionately and wild this time. One thing for sure that its his charm , his aura that can change this timid little introvert girl to a bold and intense girl. He pulled back from the kiss , and placed kisses on her neck going upwards while slightly moaned feeling at his intensity. With that he stopped and brought his face closer to mine while touching our foreheads and noses together , he closed to eyes and smiled a little then pecked my forehead and then bent a little kissed the crook of my neck and said "You are my world , my peace I lo -" Yes, he freaking stopped there , my heart raced a thousand races while he was about to say that , I knew it I knew  it that he loves me , he just needs to realize it  , and as expected he left it incomplete !!! Here she was thinking about  where they  stand right now , what their equation is , the moemnt was so peaceful yet so disturbing for her while there he was hugging his solace feeling her warmth and enjoying the moments of being in love  which he craved for these years .They were so on the same page but on the different lines , one was focused on their present and the other one on what the future holds on for them !!! 

They parted their hug he had a smiling face but when their eyes met , he saw a look of disappointment and discomfort on her face , he immediately face palmed himself for kissing her like this , he remembered all the incidents that happened before and started to feel misreble but then he recalled how she kissed her for the second time that means she loves him too!!! Yes she still loves me  !!!!Then why the look of unhappiness on her face " Consent? Did she expect me to ask for her consent and then go ahead? That's fair but we love eachother right , she told me that she loves me too wait !!Do I seriously love her? Oh fuck no!! If no then why am I kissing her , oh fuck now I know in what misery she might be right now!!! We both need some personal space to think ahh!!! " Umm Aashna?  Yes? She said I pecked her forehead assuring her that I am not leaving her and said 'Ik what you are going through right now!! TBH we both need some personal space to figure out what's going on , so you you know what I mean , I'll be back!!! Take care!!  Saying this he left .

"Its you who needs to figure out , not me!!!! Kiss me and then leave me is this what you are going to do to me !!!??? She said almost crying , she sat down on the bed thinking about her and him. Meanwhile  Sanket went to the riverside , his peaceful place . " Everything was so dull before but  it was easy , I used go around f with girls , study and yeah that's it , but now that we are together everything is dreamy around her , I internally feel happy and peaceful , I just cant resist myself but to touch her , feel her , kiss her , its not lust and it never can be lust . If its not lust , then is it l-love? I dont want to believe this but it feels that I have already accepted it . Why is this so curable yet so painful ? All these questions in my mind and only she can answer it , maybe I should not have kissed her but I just could not control myself , the moment I came to know that she wasnt his girlfriend i wanted to claim her!!!Yes, I wanted to claim her MINE!!! YESS SHE IS MINE! AND THIS IS IT SHE IS MINE ,MINE AND ONLY MINE , NO ONE CAN CHANGE THIS NOW !!!! After Anwesha she made me feel what love is and my poor heart fell in love with her!!! I am so happy rightnow !!! Now I realized I made her go through so much pain , I kissed her and always left her , she completed me but I never completed her , even I myself was confused !!! I just could not accept the fact that I can love anyone in this world other than Anwesha!!! What should I do now? These days when she was not with me , I was so hurt and broken and  so into her that I did not even think of Anwesha how can I do this? Are these signs that I have mo-moved on??? Or maybe I am wrong?? I am over thinking ? I just have  a possessive thing for her and not love??  Or maybe I should end all this before it turns to love ?? This confusion is killing me now!!! He sat there with his head in his hands . 

After a lot of debate he came onto a conclusion , his heart was beating fast on what her response would be , or what would she react , he could not help but stop thinking about how was he going to say this ,  he quickly booked a cab ,went to his campus , to their room , he pushed the room open , he saw her sitting there reading a book , they had an eye contact, it was evident she had cried , he felt the guilt in him, he went towards her and said " "

SO THIS IS IT YOU GUYSSS!!!!

I AM SORRY FOR THIS INCONSISTENCY BUT HOP THIS WAS WORTH THE WAIT!!!!

HOW DO YOU THINK THIS IS GOING NOW? 

SPOILER ? WHAT DO YOU THINK IS GOING TO HAPPEN , THERE ARE TWO EXTREME POINTS HERE , LOVE HER OR LEAVE HER? OR ???😉

DID YOU LIKE THE KISSING PART? ( Little do I  know I suck at writing such parts  ) I MEAN HOW  SHOULD I IMPROVE IT MORE ?

DO LET ME KNOW TOUR VIEWS.OPEN TO CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM.

THANKUYOU.

XOXO.