Gap Attack (a Marcus Butler/ Jack Harries Fanfic)

Chapter 7

 "So are there anyother songs you know?" I nodded and he smiled. I stopped playing the guitar and handed it to him. He took it and took the pick from my hand, and he started playing the song that got me into this mess. and I started singing it quietly so i wouldn't wake anyone.

white lips

pale face

breathing in

the snowflakes

burnt lungs

sour taste

lights gone

days end

struggling to

pay rent

long nights

strange men

and they say

shes in the class

a team

stuck in her

day dream

been this way

since eighteen

but lately

her face seems

slowly sinking

wasting

crumbling like

pastieres  and they scream

the worst this in life come free

to us cause were just under

the uphand

a gold man for

a couple grams

and she dont want

to go outside

tonight and in a pipe

she flies to them

other lands or

sells love to another man

its to cold outside for angels to fly

 Thats when i felt the cursed tear that fell down my cheek. I quickley wiped it away so that marcus wouldn't see.

I really do miss him the only reason why i'm not repling to the calls or text is because he is the one who should have thought about what he was doing. I was just making sure i wasn't going to have to say another good-bye to him. I know i'm acting immature but i can't make him think its okay.

I felt the tears threatening to pour over, then I quickley started blinking to force them away. All i wanted to do was crawl i a little ball. i looked over at marcus who was getting up to put his guitar up. My body went to get up but it refused.

The my body started to panicke.

i gripped the floor for suppot and all I could think was:

'get out, get out, get out'

Marcus came back and saw my poisten and ran to help.

"What's wrong." He said in a soft tone. I thought for a minute and rememebered Zoe goes through these like I do. But this was my first mager one since I was fifteen.

"i need Zoe." i said looking at the ground. he ran to Zoe's room and I curled up in a ball.  Zoe came in but didn't look any different than when we were at the train station. then came a red faced Alfie with Marcus following.

"What's wrong?" asked Alfie as Zoe ran up to me. I wanted to leave, all theses pairs of eyes on me in this small living room. I could take it.

"She's having a panicke attack." Zoe said as she rubbed my back.

"Do you need anything?" I heard her say. I nodded and she waited for me to answer.

"M-Marcus." I stuttered. He came up slowly and Zoe scutted back. She got up and walked over to Alfie. whispering something in his ear before he ran to the other room. Marcus came over and sat next to me.

"What do you need, love?" he asked in a small voice. I know what i needed, i needed him. His warmth, his love, HIM. But I couldn't say that I had just gotten over Jack. Or so I supposed.

"Hold me." i said softly. He knew what i mean't and slowly picked me up and into his lap. he craddled me in his arms and I slowly felt my body begin to realise all my worry. i heard someone come in and drop something. I started squirming but marcus held me tighter making me come into his chest. I close my eyes and fell him get up. i open my eyes just enought to see Alfie and Zoe carrying around blankets. Making small palets on the floor. then i heard Zoe say:

"We have to keep an eye on her all night, the panicke attacks could happne multiple times in the nigh. We will take shifts. Marcus I guess you'll go first?"said Zoe just loud enough so i could hear. I felt his body move so i'm guessing hes saying he will. I felt his body move more and soon he was in a sitting postion. I 'acted' like I was moving and i put my head on his chest. He petted my head and I opened my eyes. but slowly i didn't want to go into another fit. he looked down at me and smiled. I rested my head back in his chest and listened to his heart beat. And soon i was falling into a pit of darkness.

^^^Three Hours Later^^^

 I woke up to movement under me. It was Marcus. I look up as he moved sideways. Soon i was cuddling into his chest...His bare chest. he placed his arms around me, and began mubbling.

"i like this. her cuddling into me. my warm body on hers. God i know we haven't talk in a while. but if you could do something for me that would be great. Could you give me Iris. Let her be mine. thanks for listening God." He asked in a whispered then I felt him kiss the top of my head. I felt my self suddenly go into another pit of darkness.

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Hey guys sorry for not updatuing in a while i've been with family and its just been crazy! Hope you are enjoying it so far!