A new beginning

Chapter 19

Kenzie's P.O.V.
After I came out I went to my house. Not Ken's. He tried to call me. I wouldn't pick up. I decided to take the job that I was offered in Florida. As I was packing for the move there was a loud knock on the door. I opened it. Ken said "You can tell Felix and Martzia that you're leaving but not me?" I said as my heart throbbed "Ken I'm sorry it just tha-" He said getting closer to me "I waited my whole freaking life to meet someone like you. A beautiful, smart, talented girl. Someone who doesn't care about looks because if she did she wouldn't be dating me." I said looking down trying not to cry "I'm none of those thi-" He cut me off with a voice shaking so badly it made me feel worse. He said "Stop. You are. You are also the one who keeps me from going insane. So please, in the name of Christ and everything holy don't leave me!" I looked at him. He had tears pouring down his face. I said as tears welled up "You will find someone better. I promise." He said holding my face in his hands "I need you. You are my lifeline." I took his hands down from my face even though I didn't want too. "I'm sorry Ken..." I started to close my door. He said "Mackenzie... Please...." I shut it. I pressed my head against the door as I silently sobbed. I didn't want to leave him. I wanted to keep him I started having memories of the first time we met in the coffee shop.

~Memory~
Ken: Hi Mackenzie. I'm Ken.
Me: Hi.

~Reality~

It's sad that those few words were what made me fall so deep for him. I started to walk to my kitchen to pack my things. I looked at my fridge. There was a picture of me and Ken on a roller coaster. We had our scream faces on. But we were gripping on to each other's hands. I took the photo and looked at our hands touching. I let out a loud sob. He was what kept me stable. I ran to look out my window. He was still there. I put my hand on the door knob. But I couldn't turn it. I watched him get in his car and leave. "I love you, Ken..." I said as I slid down the door sobbing. I never felt like such an awful person in my life...