A new beginning

Chapter 5

Mackenzie's P.O.V.

When I saw him do that I put my hand to my mouth and Ken turned around and saw me. He looked at the girl then back at me. He started to walk to me but I put my hand out and said " Stop. don't even." He went to say something but girl put her arms around his waist and said " Babe. Who is this girl?" I started to cry a little. I said keeping my head held as high as I could at that moment " I was his girlfriend. who are you?" She said " I'm Rose. Remember me Mackenzie?" my mouth dropped. I totally deleted her from my mind. Her name, face, voice and attitude. I almost puked. I said " R-Rose?" she said " Yep!" she went in front of Ken and pressed her lips hard upon his. He was kissing back. I was so disappointed in him. I said quietly " I trusted you Ken. I liked you. And you just throw me away like a flaming bag of dog crap. W-Why?" He walked over to me closer and said " I didn't mean to hurt you. I just didn't know who to choose." I said crying more " Who do you choose. Me or her?" He looked at her and then at me. Then back at her. I walked backwards and couldn't believe what just happened. I kept saying " No. This isn't real." She walked up to him and wrapped her arms around him. He shook them off. He started to run after me. I ran and got in my car. Felix went over to him and said " You did the wrong thing. Leave her alone." He took off his base ball hat and threw it on the ground. I was sobbing loudly in my car. I started my car and drove off. Once I got to my house I walked in and slammed the door shut. I ran into my bedroom and went to my dresser. I opened my top drawer and took hold of an old friend. I locked my bedroom door and slid down my wall with eye liner running down my face. And then the pain went away. No more tears. Then I looked at the razor and said " Thanks" and Felix kicked in the door.

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I was yelled at by Felix that night as Martzia bandaged my arm. I was a mess. That whole summer was ruined. I stopped hanging out with everyone and was just barely surviving. I kept to myself. Then School started again. After three months of hell I had to deal with ten months of torture. As I finished putting all of my stuff in my car some one put their hands over my eyes. I laughed and said " Joey stop. I know it's you." I took their hands off of me and turned around. It was Ken. My mouth dropped. I threw his hands down and ran a hand through my freshly dyed and straightened hair. I said defensively " I thought you were Joey." He did a half smile and said " I miss your laugh Mackenzie." I started to blush. I missed his voice. I missed the comfort he gave me. But I couldn't forgive him for what he did. He then said " I miss you Mackenzie." He took my hand and pressed it against his cheek. I rubbed his cheek and felt the stubble on his cheek. It felt so familiar. I wanted it. But I couldn't take him back. I needed more than an I miss you. I took my hand away from his cheek and I saw his eyes go bright pink. He said " Mackenzie, I haven't been the same without you. I-I need you." I looked at him and my heart broke all over again. His big brown eyes ate my heart out. For the first time I saw him crying. Actually crying. A single tear went down his face. I felt my own eyes start to burn. There was something in my throat that prevented me from talking. I said trying not to just burst out crying " I can't do this Ken. Not today, Not tomorrow, Not ever! You ruined every thing Ken." He put his hands on my cheek and more tears fell from his face. He then said " I am sorry Mackenzie. Really I am. I want what we had back. I miss you Mackenzie." And he kissed me. I was shocked at first but then I realized that it felt good. I missed it. But then we separated and went back to reality. I took his hands off my cheeks and said " I'm sorry Ken." and walked to my car. I got in and started it. As I pulled out of my drive way I looked in my rear view mirror. He put a hand through his messy hair and was crying. I put a hand through my red hair and flipped it to the other side. But I didn't cry. I kept my head held as high as I could.and after two hours of driving I made it too school and decided to make it a new year. How could I do that when I was in love with some one who hurt me so bad.