Falling for You-Asher Adams

(3)-I'm fine

Last night after dinner i've got home so late after JJ tried to break his own challenge,again. I was so tired,that i forgot to change in pj,and  JJ fall asleep in my bed so i had to push him of the bed cause i love it to do this expecially when he is drunk.

In the weekend i didn't do anything specially just shopping and take the old notes for class, i had to write a lot of homeworks,pff i really missed a lot,i mean 2 years,i had to  recover a lot.
My first day of school,i was so nervos,how people will react that the bitch that made their life miserable and  made them feel very sucks,i really hoped that they will understand me and don't judge me.And in my first day of school i had a lot of work to change their mind,the festive course was coming so i decided to do it myself,i know that was Layla's job,ups not anymore,that was where i was thinking.I entered on the door,people started to whisper on each others,i heard them what stupid lies they could say,Olivia took me in a tight hug immediately, to hide my shocked face and don't make myself ashemed,she wishperes at my ear.

O:Eveything will be fine,trust me.

I stopped to hug her and i took a breath and feeling myself.

K.C: Hey,it's not like i died and come back again,ok,i know i will be fine,thanks for supporting me i really appreciate.But right now,i had to go,you know after 2 years i still have to graduate.

Olivia smiled at me and this really helped me,i took another breathe and walk like a model,like Gigi Hadid,i really didn't give a fuck about what people were saying about me or about my legs.I entered  in the chemistry  class and i saw that were just a single chair that infront was Asher and behind Layla.I tell myself perfect the Bermuda triangle or Powerpuff babes.
I take a sit and looked around and saw my mom,she was a chemistry teacher.
I whisper in silent.
 
K.C: JJ really cursed me.Fuck.
(I see Asher smiling,he really heard me.While my mom was talking to the phone,before the bells ring,i heard her saying about some papers divoced.All i was thinking was about my parent,since i was in the hospital i heard them fight a lot at phone,maybe the long distance between them,it really separated them,i hate it to think at this, of course JJ didn't know about all of this,i wasn't sure at that time but now i am, my family was really destroying,this really makes me sad.

The balls ring and we started the class,i was so bored after my mom likes to talk a lot and i hate it. I was putting my books in the looker and i saw Olivia talking to the phone very mad,i looked at her while she hang on and drink from a bottle of water,but i wasn't so stupid to think that in the bottle was water,it was alcohol,vodka i ran to her and took the bottle from right her mouth before she takes any sip.I took her hand and grabed to the woman bathroom. I made the serious voice and raised at her.

KC: What the hell are you doing?
O: Something that isn't your business!
K.C: Are you lost your mind?-she raised her voice at Olivia.

O:Don't raise your voice at me,no you are the one that was failing with alcohol!

K.C:Why you kept doing this,i thought you are done with this! - (she said calm)
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(Jordan and Asher saw K.C. grabbing Olivia hand and running to the bathrooms so they fallowed them)

O:It's not your bussines,maybe your life is destroyed,so don't destroy mine too.

(The boys were shocked,they didn't  know how to react)

(K.C stayed quiet and shocked and stared at  Olivia)

K.C: Hell no sweetheart,this is my bussines,ok,i'm may be a lost cause but you,you have a lot of chances,and i'm fucking jealous 'cause you,my dear,you are finishing your life with alcohol and drugs, you think it's makes you feel better being  hight and drunk ,go ahead kill yourself, but first think a little and look at these people with medical problems, that they want a fucking normal life. When i was at hospital i saw with my own eyes people fighting for a better life,just a simple life.
So yeah,i'm so sorry darling to trying to save your damn it life,i'm sorry for trying to be by your side and help you,i'm sorry for trying to get you a better version of yourself, i know how it feels Liv being alone,no one figure it out what happend to me,neither in this days no one knows.So go ahead and find another bottle of alcohol or you can take the one that is in this trash.

(I tried so hard to not to cry,but atleast a   tear falls apart from my eye,i didn't think of what i said,i think this was a selfish mood,but atleast my heart didn't  want anymore to explode,because the bomb from my heart was already demajed ,i take a breathe,and tried to get from that bathroom i opened the door and saw Jordan and Asher listening at the door,they heard it,all i was thinking was to talk with mom and tell her i want home,it was just an hour in school and already wanted to go home)
(I whiped my tear and tell Jordan)

K.C: Go and help her,i don't want to destroy her life,or made her like a lost cause.
(Jordan looked at me sadly)
J:I'm sorry,K.C.
K:You don't have to,i'm gonna go.

(Asher looked at me like he really felt guilty for what Olivia said)
(I took my bag and go to my mom class)

I put my pj on and take my favourite ice-cream with chocolate and strayberry and watch on Netflix how Kylie Jenner is becoming rich without doing nothing,what life,i want to be the opposite,being happy without make an effort,have my own house on a big  island,living alone,after i finished one episode,i got bored,and listen bitch songs,i don't know but i loved Streets by Doja Cat and Venom the made me feel a little fine,but i wasn't okay,so i go in the bathroom,regulating the hot water,taking my clothes off,i lit the candles.I felted so tired,it took me just an hour of school and go back home,it sucks.I closed my eyes.I took a breathe and i let myself easily into the warm water,i wanted to feel just the hot water  sucking my skin,the air that i breathe it was dissapearing my leaps,feeling the suicidal water killing my soul,the only light that i saw it turned in a black background,like my soul,my thought left my mind and a dream showed up,a memorie,it was me at that party.

I saw myself in a room kissing a boy,it wasn't Asher,it wasn't Jordan,it was a simple dealer of drugs dragging me on a bed,i didn't wanted that,i didn't want him on my lips,or hips,i couldn't stopped that,i was hight and drunk as hell,i started to feel so tired,i couldn't feel my body,the moves that i did,all i can do was to talk,i said to him to stop but he didn't want,he get off on me and looked he room i bareky saw him how close he was moving to my body,in that moment  everything went dark,i see myself again for the last time,a rich,alone,selfish,and a bitch girl who was hight as hell,i was alone,no one helped me,no one. I woke up from the bath and gasp for air,i started to rember the night,i didn't know about that night nothing,somehow i deblocked a door of pain.My body was shaking,then i heard JJ,down on the hawl calling me.It was impossible,how? he had school,i looked over at the watch and see that it is 15:56 P.M.impossibile,how?
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Please,appreciate and don't steal my work.Thanks for reading.I hope you are doing fine. Don't kill yourself and  fight for what you want,i'm pround of you!!:)