Falling for You-Asher Adams

(9)-Worse day.

After my ,,terapy session"with Grandma finished,I get to school.
I had Math.

Shit, I remembered that I had a test,the last time,that means that today the teacher finished to corected them,probably I failed,i know.

And I forget to say that it's my birthday and JJ's,the Parker twins birthday,also the day when my grandma died.
The terrible day.

The most hated thing to do was celebrating my day exactly on the day that my grandma died.
This day,is the only one where I felt really loved.
Exactly just on your birthday people care about you,but sometimes i don't need their love,i just want to be alone,going on my Nana's grave stone

I get in school where I see everyone happy,sad,uncomfortable,angry or funny.Every type of emotions.
I didn't know in which category i was,but I knew that I have to be myself again.

I can't loose myself.Not again.
The last time,when I knew that I wasn't fine,I end up in an accident with Asher.

Now I had to find myself,working a lot on me.

Going again to therapy,reading books on the beach,listening Nirvana while I am driving,going alone at Cinema to let myself cry in a big room where is dark,and I know people from there they won't listen to me how i cry,let's be realistic people from Los Angeles doesn't care about the others.

I want to be myself again.

Waking up from my thoughts.I see Olivia standing with Layla,talking.

Avoiding eye contact with them.I heard from my behind then the number one team from the school of Beverly Hight School.The ,,Big Beasts",that's how JJ was calling themshelves.

The boys were passing by me,laughing at jokes that god knows.
When JJ was texting something on the phone and everyone was looking then at their phones.
That wasn't good.

Then my phone got a text,from the
'The alcoholic club of Beverly Hills Hightschool'.
Oh hell no,we are gonna have a party at my house.I don't like parties,expecially the one where we have drugs and alcohol or boys hiding in places inside from my house waiting the girls to find them.The classic game of the Parker brothers,Hide and Seek.

Then the boys comes to me,but they passed by me,without looking at me.
I was waiting for an 'oh hello K.C,happy birthday' or 'Happy Birthday loser' but no,they just passed.This never happened,i guess this is what happen when you don't show at school for 3 days.

( The bell ringed)

I get in the class.
The seat where i always used to stay was taken by Layla.Then I saw Asher alone,but i wanted to stay away from him for a while,maybe just for a time so I got alone in another seat,between Asher and Layla.
Then Miss McRae enetered in the class.

,,Good morning class.So I want to began with th-"
'Don't say test,don't say test,please'I thought to myself.

,,With the tests"And she say it.I failed,I failed.Crap.

,,I correcte your test,some were good,some were bad.Some of you failed some of you successed."And there she start to give the kids their paper.

For the first time,I didn't care about grades.I just took a breath,in hope to get a good grade,but how can I hope to a good grade when I know I totally messed up.

And then she comes to my desk,she pit the paper down.

,,I'm gonna talk to you later"She said to me.I nod my head.

My grade was an 89%,it was good,i pass.But how can I have good grades,wgen my life is falling apart.That proves that I'm smart even if everything goes down.