Falling for You-Asher Adams

(5)-Panick attacks or just adicted?

    I woke up in the bed feeling someone who was keeping me tight to him,it was Asher,i looked at him and smiled.He was still sleeping,i tried to not to wake him up and slowly getting from bed and walking in silent to the door.I closed the door where Asher was sleeping and i looked to the others rooms,i saw Olivia and Layla that they were sleeping,i closed their door in silent,i took to the stairs,i heard some voices from the kitchen.Honestly i was scared,who was in Layla's house so early, i walk in the kitchen where i see Jordan and JJ eating some cereals and watching at anime, i asked immediately
the two boys:

     K.C: Guys,what are you doing,we have school,remember or you don't care about it ?

       (i asked the two boys that i think i made their morning goes wrong)

     Jord:Well,we can skip a day,after that night where you were dancing on the table of the kitchen, I don't think you want to go to school (-he took the milk and put another bowl of cereals.)
        

  I was shocked.My face went SHOCKED
What the hell did I do. Oh my god i made myself ashamad.Well I don't care anyway it's not like I didn't did this in the past.
    K.C: I don't give a fuck about it ok,I'm going to the school,you too JJ,now i wait you in the car- (I took my jacket,shoes and the keys of JJ's car and then i slammed the door and enter in the car)
    The boys remain in silent until the door is slammed and Jordan speaks.
J: I really asked myself when she will brought her bitch side. Be careful JJ, I think she will eat you today.
-he said sarcastically
  J.J: Ha ha very funny- he made a fake smile when he made his ways to the door he saw Asher coming downstairs,with the hand on his head,I think he had headache.
  
    J.J:Morning Asher,goodbye Asher.
-and he closed the door.
   Asher asked Jordan:Where did he go?
   J: At school,how we should do too,but i think i will go home and eat a lot of lasagna because i'm freaking hungry,bye buddy.
   -Jordan made his way to the door
  Ash:Wait,where is K-
  (Jordan closed the door before Asher start to speak)
  

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      After I left Layla's house I go home in rush to get my bag and JJ's too.The first classes were good,I had chemestry and history,now i have free period.
    When i took my lunch,I saw Spencer eating alone. I made my own way to him and sit with him.
   K.C: Hey,alone huh ?- I asked him.
   S:Well last night I was working while you and your friends were partying.
    K:Yeah,about that,mmh,I'm sorry you couldn't come.
    S:That's it,it's just a party,right?
-smiling at me
    K:Right!

-I took a sip from my fresh orange juice and looking around,where i see Asher and JJ coming to me and Spencer.
   
K:Oh hell,i gotta go,it was nice,bye
   (I started to feel so nervous,my hands were shaking,and i started to feel how my heart was beating faster and faster)

  When i almost got my bag and go, Asher take my hand and looked at me.
  
  Ash: Hey,almost you got here and you go?-he asked me with his baby blue eyes.
   K:Yeah,you know, I h-have some homeworks to do at library.

(My voice was trambling,i didn't know but my body was started to feel like fire,my skin was burning,that's how i felt it,the weather was good,it was just a sunny day.When i blink,i opened my eyes but i saw dark for a second.Then i heard Asher talking to me i didn't  understend at first,but i just took a breathe and looked at him)

   Ash:Boring. Since you do your homeworks ?-
   K: It doesn't matter right know,i have to go sorry.

  When I started to walk away,Asher was coming behind me,and grab my waist.
    
       Ash:Hey,are you okay ? You don't look to be fine.
    K.C:I'm fine,I-I just,sorry now i have to go.
    I rush immediatly to my locker,where i opened him and took my keys,i looked behind me where I felt like everyone was looking at me,everybody was talking about me.My thought just left my mind,my head was hurting,why i was feeling like this,what was that,what caused this. I was on my way to the front door,when i heard a voice that was calling me.I ignored the voice,and i left the school,i get in my car where I didn't know where to go.
    I just wanted to escape from this feelings of anxiety,i feelt like i wanted some drugs just to made this feelings dissapears.Oh my god,i don't want to be the old me,the one who always was drunk and junkie as hell.I was feeling the need of drugs,god help me,i thought i was over this.
     My phone was kept calling by mom,olivia,dad,JJ.
  I was tired of the calls so I just answer at one call from JJ.
     I heard JJ yelling at me at the phone.
  K.C: JJ listen to me,I'm fine ok?
I'm fine i just have something to do at the mall for a project,tell to mom that i'm still alive and fine ok,tell everybody to not to call me,got it?
     JJ: Really,without me,what kind of sister you are darling.Mom told me that  today after school you have a meeting with your therapist to talk about the addiction to the drugs and about your leg or you forget about it ?