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Back To being Pathetic

Misery.

Pain.

Heartbreak.

Anxiety.

What is the only thing I was feeling right now. I realised I realise that my so called fairytale had come to an end. The whole game the set up by them was only to show me my real place in my life.

I was sitting near my bed on my room. It's been two days now. I haven't slept or ate. The lights of my room haven't been switched on since then. I looked at the mirror right in front of me. Same clothes since two days, same hair since two days, sane pain since two days.

"Eleanor are you inside, when are you planning to come outside" I heard my mom. For some reason, mom checked up on me and she is the last person I wanna come to face with. I was frustrated, angry, upset, depressed.... I don't even know what more you add to what I was feeling right now.

"Eleanor it's been two days, you better come-"

"STOP BOTHERING ME FOR GOODNESS SAKE MOM. I DONT NEED YOU RIGHT NOW! PLEASE!"

This was the first time in two days I heard my voice. I heard footsteps can't away. I sighed. It wasn't even her fault. Why am I doing this?

What am I gonna do anymore?

Who should I turn to for help!?

Uncle Vincenzo?

I don't think do. He is already stressed about his health issues these days. I cannot bother him. I saw the power of Kingstones. They are impossible to put down. I cannot go to the police. I have signed the papers myself.

I was stupid enough to sign them without reading them. I should have known. Archer came back for a reason. He didn't just pop up from Chicago after four years and then fall in love with me. Make me feel special. Blind me with his love then leave me after taking everything from me.

I should have been smarter.

I shouldn't have trusted them.

I made a huge mistake.

I walked up to the bathroom and looked at my reflection in the mirror.

"How pathetic!" I heard in my head. maybe Audrey and her minions were right all along. I was only bigger by body not brains. I shouldn't exist. I shouldn't even try to exist among these perfect world.

What hurt me the most, Mr. Anonymous. Zachary Kingstone. How could he!? Everyone in the school knows including him that I am the one being bullied, I am the fat one, I-

My eyes started to tear up. Tears were flowing down. Loud sobs.

I am pathetic!

I dropped on the floor, crying my heart out.

"This is soo fucking stupid!! I am a fucking stupid person! I don't belong anywhere or to anyone. I hate this! I hate my self!" I was crying hard.

I could hear my phone ring loud enough. I know who it is. I don't wanna see it. I don't want to hear his voice. The ringing of the phone just didn't stop. I was getting frustrated.

I took my phone in my hand and looked at the screen "Bae" it read with a ring and heart emoji beside it. I scoffed and threw my phone on the other side of the room.

"AAAAAHHHHH I HATE YOU ARCHER! I HATE YOU ZACHARY!!! I HATE MYSELF" I screamed in top of my lungs. I don't care if my mom thinks I have lost it.

Because I did loose it.

Archer's pov.

Zachary sat on the couch with his hands on his head. I cannot believe, he was Ella's Mr. Anonymous all the time. It was weird that he used his snap chat more than his normal messenger, but I didn't really think it will be him.

Isabelle sat beside me with a very "Dont touch me right now" face. None of heard anything from Ella since two days. After the big reveal of Mr. Anonymous by my own stupid brother, Ella slapped him right across his face and went away from there. Since then Zachary hasn't spoken a thing. Isabelle's plan didn't work. It would have if just Ella waited for one more day.

I wish she listened to me once.

"Whose fault is that?" I heard a voice inside my head. I sighed.

When I first came here I didn't know the whole game plan will make me fall for her. It wasn't a part of the plan, but when things are meant to happen. They happen.

I tried calling her. The ring goes everytime, but she just doesn't pick up. I didn't have the courage to visit her home. I got up and kept trying to contact her, while getting a glass of water for Zachary.

He hasn't spoken a word since then.

"Zach here" I said giving him some water. He took the glass, drank it in one gulp. It's weird of him acting this way.

I sat down again "The number you are trying isn't-" I sighed again.

This is all my fault. I need to fix this soon.

Gloomy mood!? Well now what new plan these Kingstones will go for?

Will that fail too?