The unknown ~ chongyun x xingqiu

Missing you

~*chongyuns pov*~

Sometime passed after I last heard about xingqiu I wanted to see or hear him so bad but I knew I messed up when not believing him ... I texted him quite often let's say every day That I missed him...

I just texted him when he answered me all of the sudden

-well it is indeed quite your fault you messed up on yourself do you think it is funny having everybody leaving and betraying you ? My parents didn't accept for not being straight , my closest friend died , everyone in general leaving me even you even tho I thought you would stay ... well what ever hope you are happy with your life.-

-I'm really sorry please forgive me-

-"iS tHeRe AnY pRoOf" give me reasons too-

-I don't really have any I just... it's not the same without you , who even am I without you ?-

-yourself-

-can we atleast meet up I wanna see you again please-

-fine-

I felt my heart jump , I was able to see him again

-can you come to my house ?-

-if you want to-

Should I feel worried , what if he hates me but at least I will be able to see his pretty face again

Sometime passed and the bell finally rung , I quickly ran over to the door and opened it

His eyes looked so empty and lonely... while his face said something between happy and emotionless

All I thought I should do is hug him ... so that's what I did

"I'm sorry" I kept whispering that I'm sorry until xingqiu patted my back "I- it's okay"

After some time I let go of him and let him in "so now drop the act how do you feel today" he stared at me I shock and then suddenly his face dropped

"I don't know if I should trust you or not but I feel miserable and lonely and sad and I can't do anything about it , searching for friends isn't an option all friends do is betray or leave you and basically everybody hates me everywhere I go and it hurts seeing all your friends ignore you and leave you" he said and I could tell that he was trying to hold back tears

Well I never really could understand the problem I always had people around me like Bennett and my parents where always there for me while xingqiu was almost always alone

He got himself back together "even back in kindergarten I had no friends besides xianling and then later I never had friends either bedsides xianling until I began skating and I made some friends but they all ended up betraying me and leaving me alone with xianling again and my parents never really cared about me only about my grades"

He was now having a few tears rolling down his face

~*xingius pov*~

All this time I tried becoming important so people won't forget me but failed I just felt more miserable and more lonely , the only thing really keeping me alive was chongyun

If he would have stopped texting me I would be 100% dead

I sometimes texted back a smily or something like that

~*chongyuns pov*~

Why always people like xingqiu he really doesn't deserve it

"If I am honest I never really cared about not having friends since I didn't really knew what it was not to be alone until skating" he said after a while

I always had friends around me and be there for me

"I liked it more being lonely and i started streaming for fun and I never really wanted to get big but atleast I got to meet you"

„At least" xingqius kinda gay lmao have fun waiting for a new chapter duckers