In Her Mind: "Truth"

I Think Too Much

Why am I like this?
Why do I keep doing this?
It's late at night and I'm wide awake
I am sitting in my bathroom
On the cold, dirty floor
I should be asleep by now
But it's no surprise that I find myself here
Here I am again, talking to myself
With a lot of questions filled in my head
Questions that I cannot answer
I think too much

These questions never seem to go away
They are always running circles in my head
I can't even organize these thoughts
They just don't shut up, they keep talking
Does anyone else notices every single thing?
Because everytime I do
I tend to exaggerate what I'm seeing
Does anyone else overthink?
No? Well, I over-analyze everything

Words come in all different combinations
All these combinations are translated differently
Every little thing people say
I process through it everyday
Questions keep racing through my mind
The answers I try and come up with
Only make me feel anxious
I think too much for my own good

My overthinking is bad
It is so bad I get to the point
Where I even overthink myself into a bad mood
A pretty bad mood where I just
Question life all together
My chest tighten ups as my heart aches
I can barely breath
I hold my knees up to my chest so the pain I feel
Doesn't feel that bad than it does

I feel like there's something wrong with me
Sitting on the cold, dirty bathroom floor
I try to calm myself down
I try to silence my sobs
I do that so nobody can hear me
I cry thinking that I'm out of my mind,
People ask me why I'm crying
Why am I crying?
I cannot explain to you why I am crying
How am I going to explain it to you?
When I can't even understand myself?

I try but it doesn't want to stop
No matter how loud I can shout
No matter how much I try to beg
It just doesn't want to stop
I ask myself who is responsible
"Why am I like this?" I ask myself
In the end, I am the who is responsible
I just think too much