I've never believed anyone
Who has told me that I'm beautiful
I never feel beautiful
What makes me beautiful?
Is it my body?
Had you know what I had done
To become skinny
Would you still call me beautiful?
The girls on the magazines covers
I often find myself throwing them away
Because all I see in there
Are girls who are too good to be true
"Wow, they are really pretty."
I envy them for their beauty
Despite not knowing who they are
I set a goal back when I was thirteen
To be able to lose weight
So that everyone would like me
It's been four years now
And I achieved my goal
But I had realized something
Why do I care about what these people think?
Because it is only now they notice my existence
So instead of gaining confidence
I gained insecurities
I also gained feelings of hatred
I hate how I envy the girls on Instagram
Seeing them get the things I want
I should be happy for them but I'm not
Their pretty faces and gorgeous body
Somewhere out there
Their boyfriends are pretty too
They live their lives like a movie
Always fun without a care in the world
I don't even know those people
But I wanna be them so badly
So no matter how much you try
No matter how much you convince me
I just never feel beautiful
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In Her Mind: "Truth"
Poetry"In Her Mind" is a collection of poetry written by author, poet, Phemelo Mojaki. In the book, she invites the reader to get a glimpse of the mind and life of the poet. "In Her Mind: 'Truth'" is rather smaller collection of the book, comment to get t...
