Solitude (Megumi X reader)

13

This is the last chapter before the exchange event !!
Again, feel free to comment any one-shot ideas for me to write as filler chapters.
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1 week before the exchange event, first-person POV
I often find myself overdoing things. I push myself past my limit, disregarding any after effects.
—Stupid, I know.
But in those moments, I'm not thinking about what will happen after, I'm thinking about succeeding in whatever I'm doing.
In this case, the aftermath of pushing myself too hard while training was sickness. I had a fever, my body ached, and I was in bed all day. Tissues were stacked on my nightstand, I was too weak to get up and throw them out.
I felt horrible, I couldn't fall asleep, as usual, but this time it was worse, because all I wanted to do was sleep. Nobara and Fushiguro were currently in class, while I laid here restless, my forehead pounding. It bothered me that everyone was being active and getting things done while I laid here. I had nothing to do to pass time either, my phone was dead, and I didn't have the energy to get up and turn the tv on.
"Ughhh..." I groaned, mentally cursing myself for not being able to fall into rest.
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5 hours later, 7 PM.
Hours have passed, and here I continued to lay awake. Around an hour ago, I got up to use that bathroom. I decided the least I could do was charge my phone, and I made sure to grab a glass of water on the way back, considering I wouldn't be getting back up any time soon.
I plugged my charger into the wall, then laid back under my covers.
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I spent the next hour scrolling through Instagram, responding to Kugisaki and Fushiguro's worried texts. I appreciated the fact that they checked up on me, I was thankful to have such great friends.
For a while, they stopped responding in our group chat. I assumed they were eating dinner, or doing something of the sort.
This was around the time we usually ate together, so I wouldn't be surprised.
I decided to skip dinner myself, I had instant ramen in my cabinet, but again, I was too tired to get up and make it.

I finally lost all hope in falling asleep, I was content with just closing my eyes and resting instead.

5 minutes after I closed my eyes, I heard a knock on the door.

—Kidding, she didn't bother to knock.
Instead, Nobara swung open my door, a tired Fushiguro trailing behind her, scolding her for not knocking or having a sense of privacy.
Nobara held a plastic bag in her hand from our favorite place to eat.
"I come with food!" She beamed, plopping down next to me on my bed.
Fushiguro stood on the right side of my bed, eyeing the mess on my nightstand.
"Guys, this is sweet and all, but you do realize I'm sick, right?" I questioned, "I don't want you two to get sick too."
"It's fine, I don't get sick." Fushiguro said, picking up the tissues from next to my bed and throwing them away in the kitchen.
"Eh, I don't really care if I get a cold!" Nobara shrugged, pulling the food out of the bag.
I rolled my eyes at their carelessness, holding back a smile.
Fushiguro returned from the kitchen, awkwardly standing next to my bed again.
I slid closer to Kugisaki, patting the empty spot next to me on my bed.
"Here, sit, there's plenty of room!" I smiled, as he reluctantly sat beside me. Now, I was in the middle of the two.
"I got you a miso soup, it'll help you feel better." Nobara rambled, handing me my soup.
"Thanks guys, you didn't have to do anything for me, I'm sure this will pass by tomorrow." I said, scratching my neck.
"Shut up and eat." Nobara ordered, pushing my cup in front of me.
I sighed before giving in.
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We talked and ate, Fushiguro being fairly quiet as usual, but occasionally speaking up and saying something smart-ass-like. I always enjoyed my time with those two.
Once we finished eating, I laid in the middle of the two, Nobara laying on my left side and Fushiguro sitting on my right.
"What did you guys do all day?" I asked, "do I need to catch up on anything?"
I coughed in my elbow, then sighing. I hated being sick, my constant sniffling and coughing must have annoyed them.
I placed the back of my hand on my forehead, feeling the extreme warmth. I hoped it would actually pass by tomorrow like I said it would.
"...no, you didn't miss much." Fushiguro mumbled, removing my hand from my head and replacing it with his, "Geez, you're really burning up."
"This is what happens when you train in the rain!" Nobara scoffed at me.
Fushiguro pulled away, standing up to walk into the kitchen.
I didn't bother to look at where he was going, besides, Kugisaki was occupying my attention by rambling on about how I shouldn't push myself this hard.
Soon after, he returned with a wet rag in his hand.
"Turn your head to the ceiling." He mumbled, turning my head to face up instead of facing Nobara.
"Fushiguro, you don't need to baby me-" I said, rolling my eyes.
He ignored my comment, placing the rag on my forehead. It was new for him to do this type of thing, I was usually the one doing them to him. But I kind of liked it.
'Shut up and let me help you." He scoffed, pushing away my hands that were trying to grab his wrist.
I saw Nobara smiling from the corner of my eye at us two, then looking away.
After I stopped complaining, he sat back down on the edge of my bed.
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Eventually, Nobara pulled out a dvd from her bag.
"I totally forgot, I brought a movie to watch!" She smiled, "I hope you like sad shit, because that's all I've got for us."

"Do we really need to put that on? It's getting kind of late." Fushiguro said, checking the time on his phone.
"Uh, so what? It's Friday, not like we have anything going on tomorrow." Nobara scoffed.

"Yeah, I guess. You can stay if you want, I think I'll head back now, though." He responded, standing up.
"Mood killer..." Kugisaki mumbled under her breath.
"...feel better, Katsu." Fushiguro said dusting himself off before turning around to leave.

I don't know what it was, but when he said he was leaving, I couldn't help but feel disappointed for some reason. Of course I was fine with it just being me and Nobara, but I know how she gets at night, and somehow he helps keep me sane. He sort of balances things out, you know?
Before he could get far, I stood up from the bed, grabbing his wrist.
"Wait!" I yelled, my voice raspy.
I could feel Nobara's glare on the back of my head, she was probably confused on why I stopped him.
He turned his head my direction, looking at me in confusion.
"I..uh..." I mumbled.
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The silence was becoming awkward, so I chuckled nervously, avoiding eye contact.
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"Goodnight, Fushiguro." I half smiled, dropping his hand.
"Oh, um, goodnight?" He mumbled, obviously confused.
Me and Nobara waved him off, as he walked out.
When he shut the door, I plopped down next to Nobara, grabbing the DVD from her hand and examining it.

"A Silent Voice?" I hummed.
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"You two have gotten close." Nobara changed the subject, placing her chin in her palm.
"Me and Fushiguro?" I questioned.
"Yeah, what changed?" She asked.

I had to think about it for a moment, to be honest, I haven't thought about that. Something shifted between us after that night. We shared each other's pain, we had to go through it together. And I guess that's what made us closer.
I didn't want to tell this to Kugisaki, I didn't want her to feel bad or left out. She wasn't there to see Yuji die like me and Fushiguro were.

"I...I'm not sure, I guess we just started chatting more?" I shrugged, brushing it off.
She nodded, obviously aware I was lying. But she chose to leave the subject, instead inserting the dvd into the player.

"Alright, you might need another box of tissues for this." She warned me playfully, pulling up the covers.

And with that, we eventually fell asleep towards the end of the movie after many sobs.

I was finally able to sleep.
—Turns out all I needed was someone else's warmth beside me.
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Ok another filler chapter done, next chapter we're back on track!!
I apologize , this was a bit rushed.
Thank you Sm for 500 reads <3
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