Love and war

20 years

Ruby POV

The White Queen led us up the her kitchen, were it was sooooo obvious a potion was brewing, it smelled like.....not good things. The kitchen was huge and pristine, everything was white, the dirt in between the tile was even white. A bubbling pot overflowed into a drain a few feet away from us.
We walked towards it.
"Is this it?" I ask.
"Will this stop Cora?" Felix adds
"Yes it will but you have too use it quick. It was made with certain ingredients that expire quick, so you need to do this by tomorrow at mid-night, or you're kinda screwed." She explained
"Ok, we got this." I confirmed.
The White Queen told us to go outside and wait a bit so she could finish the potion.
The boys were sitting around a long, mahogany dining room table, but I didn't see Felix anywhere. I started to wander the large White Castle looking for him. After about 15 minutes I found him sitting on a window ledge looking out, the moonlight creating his shadow on the floor.
"Watcha doing?" I ask while slowly walking over towards him.
"Thinking." he replied
"About what?" I added as I said down on the other side of the window ledge.
"This whole thing or basically the past 20 years. So much happened so much changed after you arrived. Suddenly there was hope for peace and a better ruling over Neverland. But of course here we are, fighting a war because of another one of Pan's girls....... Oh My God, I'm sorry I didn't mean it like that it's just that, over the years he has gained and lost so much and the rest of us haven't even gained yet." the exclaimed while sustaining his staring at the window.
"I don't get it, what haven't you gained, you like the VP of Neverland. Its like, God forbid, if happened to Peter-"
"That's just it, I don't gain unless he looses. If HE dies THEN I'm leader. In one way or another and whether he knows it or not, he controls me and my life."
"BUT WHAT HAVE YOU LOST THAT HE'S GAINED!" I yelled.
"YOU, I LOST YOU. Before Peter changed the past, in the other reality, we had plans! We were gonna start Ocean Island together, but you know I always had an inkling that no matter how evil he was you would still love him. Then you ran without me.... You left me here to be a slave! You were the only one I cared about on that goddamn island, you kept me alive. The thought of me and you running away together kept me going, then I just quit when you left." He yelled back at me.
"YOU KNOW I LOVED YOU AND I STILL DO!.... But I love Peter more. I'm sorry Felix, for everything especially leaving you. But we can't ever act on this or tell Peter so just STOP!"
"Okay I'll stop..... everything" and with that he stormed away.