My Best Friend - Myles Parrish (ON HOLD)

Chapter 5- Panic

I couldn't sleep that night. All I could think about was the fact that I had feelings for my best friend of the past eleven years of my life. Someone who I have shared just about all of my deepest secrets and feelings for people with. But now, those feelings are for him. I can't even imagine what it would be like if he knew. Oh God. I can't think about that. It would be so awkward, especially if he didn't feel the same. I'm almost 100% sure he doesn't.

Amidst all those thoughts and questions I asked myself if I should tell Myles, I fell asleep, contemplating the decision that would either make or break our realtionship as
friends or maybe more than friends (😉 song reference lol).

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I woke up the next morning with a pounding headache. I got up and went to my bathroom to look for some asprins. Shuffling through my medicine cabinet, I found none. I decided to look in Myles' bathroom. While I was awake last night, or should I say early this morning, I didn't hear Myles go to his room to sleep, so I didn't have to knock. I threw my hair up in a messy bun, washed my face, brushed my teeth, put a bra on and went to Myles' room.

What I saw when I walked in made my heart skip a beat. At first, my eyes landed on the pile of a girl's clothes laying at the foot of his bed. Then I looked at the bed to see Myles askeep with his shirt off, and his arm wrapped around Stella, who also had no shirt on, or any clothes on, judging by the clothes on the floor.

I couldn't fully process the sight in front of me, so I just walked out to the living room and sat in the couch. What I just saw really had an effect on me. I was barley starting to understand these new found feelings I had for Myles', and now he's having sex with Stella. And it's not just the usual fuck that Myles has with random girls, this time it was with feeling. A million thoughts were racing through my mind. The decision was made for me: I can't tell Myles how I feel. He likes Stella, and he won't feel the same. If I tell him now, everything will be wrong.

Too many feelings were mixing up inside my mind and in my heart. I was so confused. I was overwhelmed. All of a sudden I stated seeing spots and my sight was getting blurry. My breathing got quick and I felt like I was being suffocated. This feeling was familiar. I was having a panick attack. And then, all I saw was black.