Give me love

Visits | 10

When I wake up My face hurts, I'm scared to even look in the mirror. I slowly walk out the room and see if there is any sign of Niall. There isn't but in the kitchen table is a Gigantic arrangement of flowers and a small card.

'If you have any kindness in your heart please forgive me.

Love Niall xx'

I grab the big arrangement and walk to the back porch where I absolutely smash it all glass broke and water spilled the flowers falling apart.

There's a ring at the door I snap out of it and run back in, I see the car parked and it's Harry's. I open the door forgetting what I even looked like.

"What happened to you?!" He was shocked

"You what a lie or the truth?"

"The truth."

"I told Niall I didn't want to be with him anymore and we got into an argument and I hit him and he hit me." I tried to smile but it hurt

"I haven't even looked at myself in fear." I finished

"Andy I'm so sorry." He whispers

"Im fine, I'm just going to grab somethings and go. were you here to see niall?" I let him in

"No, I wanted to talk to you actually. we left off wrong and its been bothering ever since you left."

"close the door, I want to leave as soon as I can."I didn't want to think about the conversation we had.

"Andy, stop." he said

"I cant harry, I have to go like I said this isn't for you this is for me, and if you came to tell me to stay, I cant" I walked to my room where I grabbed a book bag and start looking for clothes.

"I didn't come to tell yo to stay, I came to tell you I want you to be with me." I stopped in my tracks.

"don't feel that you have to all the sudden want me because I put the pressure on you, that was stupid on my side. what happened happened that's it. I needed a way to leave." I was angry not even at him but at my self.

"so now you're angry? " I just started crying and packing

"im sorry, im in pain and shock and im sad and I don't know how I feel." I come to a halt

he took me into his arms and I just let my self go all my weight fell under me and I sobbed, I let him stroke my back and hold me.

"I want you to come with me, not because I feel guilty or because you pressured me which you didn't but because I want you to." he whispered in my hair.

"harry, I cant. I want to, I want you. but I cant be with you if im broken and you're so full of life, i'll feel like i'll take it out of you. I don't think this was the right time for either of us." I wipe my tears and I stood up I kissed his cheek . he stood up as well and in silence he helps me pack my bags.

when we are done I grab the keys to my car, and I don't bother leaving a note. the silence wasn't weird or awkward it was soothing. when I get the stuff I need I decide where i'm going, I don't tell him i wasn't even quite sure myself.

the last thing I know is I hugged harry, he took my round face into both of his hands and pressed the softest kiss on my cheek and then another one on my lips. I kiss him back slow and steady so soft it almost felt as if we weren't even touching. I feel a wet stream going down my face but I just smile.

what if this was the last time I saw him I wold have to remember him just like this, in his navy blue work shirt and some gray pants. his butterfly tattoo poking out and his hair perfect except that one curl out of place. his lips a slight pink shade and his eyes a beautiful shade of green. he seemed like a man from a book, or a dream. and that's all I would have left of him. because even if I had gone with him, because the thought did cross my mind. I could never be his because I wasn't even mine. I was hurt and broken and I didn't want him to pay the price of having to build me back together.

I knew he would find someone, as beautiful as him and who he deserved.

we didn't say a word I just watched him get into his car and drive away. I get in mine and decide to go to where my grandma used to take us. Charleston, South Carolina.

I go to the bank and take out some money, if anything I knew better I always kept any money I made in a separate account just incase since he payed for all of the bills almost all of my money was saved.

I grabbed some food and headed on the road, Charleston was my safe place when when I was younger the beaches and the small shops around it was different from Florida. still near the beach but so much quieter and the food there was always amazing, my grandmother lived there and every other summer I would spend it with her.

this is where I was headed where I would find peace hopefully, but I knew that I wasn't anywhere near getting away from Niall.