Why care..? (Tommyinnit angst)

chapter 10

Ayo! I started a new book! I put alot of effort into the first chapter of it, so please go check it out!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Wilbur POV:

 It has been quite some time since Tommy left to buy icecream. There could just be a long line, but i decided to go check on him, to make sure he had everything under control. "I'll go see if Toms messed up the orders." I said, earning a nod from Phil. I started walking down to the shop. When i almost could see the shop, i heard yelling. It was Tommys voice, and another, very similar voice. I sighed, and began walking again. 'what has this child started.' i thought to myself.

I  turned the corner to see Tommy arguing with someone. No, not someone. Ranboo and... Tubbo? But i thought he had family problems and couldn't come. "i don't always have to hang out with you Tommy!" Tubbo yelled at the other boy. "I never said that! But why would you lie about you had family problems?" He shouted back. " I just said that so i didn't have to put up with you being jealous." "Jealous?! You know you're not my only friend right!?" Tommys voice cracked slightly. "Then whats the problem?" "Well obviously the problem is that you don't truste me!". They didn't have more time to argue, before i stepped in. "Tubbo, why are you here? I thought you had family issues you neede to resolve?" I started, trying to remain calm. Tubbo looked away, trying to avoid eyecontact, while Ranboo just awkwardly stood there, not wanting any part of the drama.

"Come Ranboo, we already  got our icecream, no need to wander around here anymore." Tubbo said, barely audible. Tubbo went infront, and when he was out of ear reach Ranboo whispered a quick 'sorry', and then followed Tubbo to wherever he was going. Then I turned to Tommy, who looked like he was on the verge of tears. 

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Tommy POV:

I watched at the duo left my eyesight, my heart full with the feeling of sadness, betrayal and guilt. He was sad that Tubbo lied to him. He felt betrayed that Tubbo lied to him. But most of all guilty, that the only way Tubbo could hang out with other, better people was to make him feel better. I, that that moment, had never felt more hopeless. My vision started getting blurry. i watched terrified as black and white dots appeared infront of me, until i suddenly, blacked out.

(Timeskip brought to you by the icecream lady who was watching the entire thing)

black. all i could see was black. I was still holding onto Consciousness even though i couldn't se anything. What just happened. Oh right, tubbo was there! Well of course with Ranboo, when did he even come to britain? Does the fans know about it? I could hear slight whispers of maybe, i think it is Wilbur's voice? I don't know. Not sure if it matters anyway. Did i die? Am i finally free? No, i've done too much shit for the world to just let me go like that.  I will definetly survive. I felt someone pick me up bridal style, and started to walk. Where are they taking me? It's problably my dad. He's done this before, he wasn't happy. But at that time my mother was there so i atleast looked presentable for the first day of school after weekend. The other days didn't matter since i would get beaten up by a bunch of punks anyway, so no one would see the new bruises between those scattered across my body. Where was i again. Right i blacked out. How much longer till i'm home? Ths sure is a long car ride. But why doesn't it smell like smoke and alchohol? Shouldn't it be colder considering that most of the windows were broken? I don't really undertsand. Not that i ever did. Oh, guess the car stopped. I can hear Techno's voice now, that doesn't make sense. I'm 'home' right? I'm tired. Even though i black out i don't get sleep. My life really sucks doesn't it?  And the thing that sucks most is that people is stopping me from ending it all, not because they like me, it's just all out of pity. I had been decieved once by this pity, from my mother to be exact. She never liked me, she just felt bad because i was sad and tired all the time. Soon enough she realized i was unfixable, she left in a heartbeat. Just like everyone else.

I feel the bed beneath me. But it doesn't feel like MY bed. Who's bed is it? OH, right i'm in Brighton. I'm happy that that svimshirt was thight, don't want them to find out about my current state, they'll pity me and eventually leave. I feel sleepy. Can i finally sleep? Guess so. And if i'm lucky...

i might not wake up.

A/N: HELLO! I AM OFFICALLY BISEXUAL

i have not told anyone other than my bestie, since my parents are homophobic :P

but YEA i actually feel alot better than before, now that i finally know my own sexuality.

Also if you were wondering, my pronouns are she/they

HAVE A GREAT MORNING/DAY/NIGHT! (most likely night, you ain't fooling me)