Save me

I f*ckee up

They read what I can can't do

No drinking or smoking

I sat there felt like prisoner in my own body

They help pack my bags

Good night Max's

Thank guys

Dereck and Meredith took me home for the night

I can to sleep in an actual bed for a chance and soft sheets on my body made me cry. I slept for what felt hours

I woke to the smell of breakfast

I walked to the kitchen

Good morning

Hey

Zola and Bailey were in there high chair

I ate a stack of pancakes

We're heading out and our cell number on the table

Okay

The second they left and I call all my friends for a party at 7:00 pm with drinking to ensure I don't have to give my kidney

The kids and I watched movie all day until 7pm

I put the kids to sleep and the party had begun

My friend brought alcohol which I chugged and we dance around the house for hours and hours I felt free for once in my life. The house was a mess there were tampons all over the place and bottle of alcohol that stacked to the ceiling

I fell asleep hutches over the toilet puking from all the alcohol I had taken in

We're home

I drunkenly walked out the living and collapsed on the couch as a massive headache hit me hard

What happen in here

Meredith walked to the bathroom and screamed

Why are there tampons on the wall

I drunkenly open my eyes

Oh I'm sorry

What did you do

I had party

You had a what

A party I said drunkenly

You drunk i see

Oh yes I feel so good about I smiled

You have hangover and destroy our house

Your going to work with us

No I'm sick

You shouldn't drink

I don't give a fuck at this point I'm finally free

Come on

I got up and lunged my drunkenly body into the car as the motion of the car made me throw up.

We got the hospital and they brought me to a room to start an ivy

Dereck and Meredith left Max

We went to find Owen

We had board meeting

How last night with Max

She had party and is drunk

She drunk

What why

She giving her kidney

I think it was on purpose

Her father dying of steptic shock right now

Let me talk to her

I went to her room

She was asleep and crying

Max wake up

What dude I'm sleeping

You knew the rules and you still broke them

Yeah maybe I didn't want to give him kidney after what he did to me

He dying of shock right now

Good he should be dead

He brought me a wheelchair and he drove me to my dad room

He was the ICU in the worst shape

I held his hand

I'm sorry dad I did this I fucking idiot

Beep beep beep beep

They had lost him

I left he room crying

I put my headphones as sat there

I started singing before you go and the tears the feel hit me harder

Is my dad dead

Yes I'm sorry

I ran into the bathroom and I puked I sobbed harder into my hands

My dad is dead because of me. I started cutting myself deeper the blood formed puddle on the floor

I stayed in the stall crying for hours upon hours I felt guilty of what I did

I decided to leave and I put my hood up and placed my headphones in my ears. I walked out everything moved in slow motion for me as I ran to my room. I fell asleep and I cried myself to sleep