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Forgiveness

Forgiveness can be messy and hard but to heal you have to forgive those who hurt you

I walked down to the kitchen

My dad and mom were packing lunches for Zola and Bailey

Good morning sweetie my dad said

How do you forgive? I asked

What? My dad asked

I want to forgive Xander I said

That a big thing to commit to my mon said

There no way out from the dark place -brother bear No way out-

I know but to heal I need to forgive him I said

Xander coming in for check out of his speelen you could talk with him my mom said

Okay i said

My parents drove me to the hospital

I waited for the meeting

Owen walked up to me

Hey Max how you doing Owen asked

About to do big thing I said

Which is Owen asked

Forgive my brother I said

Wow but that a good step Owen said

Max your brother is here my mom said

She walked me to the cafeteria

I saw Kelsey Xander girlfriend

I walked up to them

I Xander I said

Hey Max Xander said

I sat down

Kelsey will you please leave I asked politely

Sure Kelsey said

I wanted to say Xander I forgive you I said

Wait What Xander said laughing

what I said

After all this time you forgive me Xander said

Yes I said

Why I've done things most brother wouldn't do
Xander said

Like abandoned your own blood I said laughing

That's exactly what I did I don't know why you laughing because you did just attempt suicide Xander said

Who told you I never did I asked

Alex did Xander said

Dishing patient information is that breach on your contract I said

No he your family Alex said

Not anymore he is if you think he is your crazy I said

Did you want forgive him? Dereck asked

Yes but I can't I sat running away as tears trickled down my face. I went into an empty patient room and I picked a siringe filled with medicine

Sit that down Alex said

I want to die for real I said

Hand that to me that medicine will stop your heart Alex said

I want to stop it I said

Before Alex could reached for it I stabbed myself in the heart as I faint on the floor

Alex POV

I need crash court Stat I yelled

Page Cardio now I yelled

I started CPR and chest compressions

What the emergency Teddy said

Max stabbed herself with something that will kill her I said

This is blood thinners if she took it she could bleed out Teddy said

We placed Alex on gurner and rushed to OR 2

Meredith POV

What the big emergency? I said

Max stabbed her self with blood thinners medicine Kelly said

What? I said racing for the door

Meredith you can't go it your daughter we have her okay Richard said

It my baby girl your operation on I said holding back tears

Richard closed the door of the OR

I stumbled back to the lobby and broke down crying

Three hours later

Still nothing about Max condition

Why did I let this get this far I said to myself with tears streaming down my face

Meredith Richard said

Yes I said getting up

Max didn't make it she bled to death Richard said

I felt weak and sick

You kidding me I said crying

I wish I was Richard said

Can I see her I asked

Yes Richard said

He walked to the morgue

I lifted the sheet up and I saw Max precious face and the blood that left her body I couldn't bare the pain of the lost of my baby girl

I broke down screamed into Dereck arms

I could up my own weight so I collapsed on the bed

I came back to realization and I got back to work but I struggle to forgive myself for the death of my daughter and maybe I'll never forgive myself but I know we couldn't do anything for her