Save me

Therapy

Do I belong is the question I stay awake asking myself what if I just died in that hit and run my life would be amazing

I got out of bed and went to my bathroom as I washed my face from salt from crying

I walked to the kitchen to eat pizza for breakfast

I made you food Meredith said upset with the teen

Oh I know but I don't care I said sassy

You other have therapy Meredith said

I spit my water out

What I said

You have therapy Meredith repeated yourself

What why I said

You are struggling and need help Dereck interrupted stop the fighting between me and Meredith

I also enrolled at school too Meredith said

I about passed out

Let's go to your appointment Meredith said

No I screamed

Dereck take the kids with you will I deal with this teen Meredith said

I told you it was struggle Dereck laughed

Even you don't want me I said

I stormed out of the room and went to my bedroom and slam the door sliding down the door crying put  my face in my hand

Thank you very much for you comment right then and there Meredith yelled at Dereck

Max open this door right now

I made run for it and escape through the door

I busted the door down

Max where are you

I ran so fast from home and I ran to the nearest bridge and I stood on ledge ready to jump to my death

Dereck she gone Meredith cried

Let's find her how hard could it be Dereck laughed

It was your idea to adopted her

I stood on the ledge until I heard

Max get off Owen said

No I'm done with life I can't fight anymore I feel like a lost cause and don't know how come back from this I said crying

I'm taking you home Owen said

No you not I'm not letting you do that either you let me die right now or I'll die five days later I'm need out of this pain Max cried

Owen walked me to my house there I stood there wanting to puke before facing my parents

Meredith and Dereck Owen yelled

What they both said

Where have you been Meredith said angrily slamming her hand on the table

I was ready to jump to die and I couldn't do it I said as tears fell

You did what Dereck yelled

I tried taking my life but I stopped I sobbed harder

Go to your room we will deal with you later Dereck said

What I tried kill myself you tossing me out like trash I screamed

I stormed upstairs and I fell to the floor in tears as I stare at the ceiling. I grabbed my headphones and I played music. I imagine I was outside with the air so crisp and I could feel the coolness on my face. I danced around the backyard as the music played.

Max wake up Meredith yelled

What I said

We're going to the doctor now Meredith demanded me to get up

I walked down the flight of stairs and we headed to the hospital. They took me to the psych ward

This is we're the mentally insane go I said laughing under my breath

I sat in this lively room with plants and it smelled like Christmas came early

The therapist walked in

Max are you ready she spoke

Yes I said nervous

We entered another room filled with suicide survivors

Have sit she sweetly said

Guys this Max she said

Hi Max they all perked up

Hi I nervously said

Let's go around tell one thing that happen leading up to your attempt

Max you go first

It was just something that was going to happen but it wasn't stopping me

I stood up

What you doing

I have an idea

What the idea the therapist spoke up

We need to show these doctors were strong and resilient I said

Everyone closed your eyes I said

Imagine you walking up that bridge we're about to jump but you felt a present and that present is god and he carried you through thick and thin of life

What song are you thinking?

Oceans

That is a great song

Maybe not right now the therapist interrupted

I think it possible

Okay good lord child the therapist joked with me