⌜ chapter thirty ⌟
"What did you want to talk about?" Letty asks as she looks at Eric.
"I can't stand that you think I hate you." He tells her. "I don't, I never could. It's just... I've thought one way about you our entire lives, and...and the girl that I thought you were couldn't actually hurt a living thing. And I heard what you said about how they're monsters, and I get it. I do, but...
"Finding out that you've killed things before, it changed everything that I thought I knew about you. I saw this entirely different person than the one that I fell in love with, someone that I don't know." He says, and she nods as she looks down. "But I wanna know her. I wanna get to know you for who you really are...and I want us to try and be friends."
"I can't be your friend, Eric." She shakes her head as she looks at him. "I don't want to go back to being just your friend. I... You saw the one part of me that I have always hated about myself, and it shattered us. It hurt like hell to look at you...and see fear in your eyes; to reach for you, and watch you pull away from me. I haven't felt this horrible...in a really long time.
"So, I can't be your friend. I just can't. Because I can't be friends with someone that I'm in love with. I'm still in love with you, and I don't see that changing. I don't know how to fall out- out of love with you. And seeing you when I have and not being able to be with you... I mean, even when we've broken up in the past, I could still go to you...because I could still feel the love from you. And I could hug you, and feel okay, but I can't anymore. I'm afraid to reach for you...and I don't feel that love from you anymore. And it has been killing me. It's killing me standing here right now."
Eric takes a deep breath as he reaches up to wipe a tear from his cheek, and he looks away from her as she turns to the side. Letty covers her face as she chokes back her tears, and it takes her a minute to regain her composure.
"You are an incredible person, Eric." The brunette says as she turns to face him again. "You're the sweetest son, and an amazing big brother. And one day you're gonna be the best damn boyfriend and then husband to some unbelievably lucky girl, and...and I can't be your friend while I watch that happen. I can't handle watching you move on from me and fall in love with someone else. So, no, I don't want to be your friend. Because that will hurt infinitely worse than not having you in my life at all."
He nods as he looks at her. "I understand." He tells her, and she turns around and walks away from him.
"Hey." Hope taps Jason's arm when she sees Letty walking over to them.
"What the hell happened?" Jason questions when he sees her crying.
"He said that he wanted us to be f-friends." She tells them, practically choking on the word as she wipes her face again. "And I told him that I can't do that."
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