Wrist Cutter ~ A Levi × Reader FanFic

new update - you choose the ending

Hello there, Aevum here.

It's been a very long time since I used this account, but til this day I still get so many requests asking for me to update, so I've decided to write one, however I want you as the readers to decide how it ends.

Now, before I get straight to the point, I have some concerns.

As you all know the title of this story is 'Wrist Cutter' which I chose when I was younger because I was in, shall we say a really dark place.

Most of you who read this tend to be around the 11-14 year old mark, which is honestly quite worrying, and additionally people who read books like this normally struggle with depression or another form of mental illness.

What I can say is, I understand you.

I've struggled with anxiety and depression for a little under six years now, it's rather tiresome. The difference is now that I'm a lot older I understand it a bit better.
When you're younger, it's very difficult; you get all these sad feelings and feel down quite often, but you don't really understand why. Some people can tell others, but if you're like me and keep your feelings to yourself, it can become very lonesome.
A lot of adults tend to tell you that 'it's puberty' or 'you'll get through it soon,' but what I can tell you is sitting and doing nothing won't make it go away.
Whilst a lot of the time you feel like you're the only one struggling, I can promise you that you're not alone and there's people that want to help, and we want to see you grow up happy, regardless of what that takes.

Let's start with, what are your dreams? For example I want to be an actor, though I'm not having much luck with it at the moment lmao.
What do you want to be when you grow up?
If your parents don't agree with your dreams, that's tough. It's not their life, it's yours, and as long as you're happy that's all that matters.
Parents can be very irritating, trust me, I know, but it's best to just go along with what they say (within reason), however hard that is.

For example I'm bisexual, I have a very homophobic and unreasonable mother, and I've told her so many times not to say certain slurs, but she doesn't listen and quite frankly I'm fed up. I've given up correcting her because all it does is create arguments which I'm far too tired to keep having, so now if she says anything I just ignore her. She's a grown woman, and put bluntly her sewer of a mouth isn't my responsibility.

If you're like me, I want you to remember that your parents being homophobic, racist, ableist etc is NOT your fault. Some people for some reason like to put the blame on us when our family, who are grown adults do something wrong, and that's not fair. You're a child, you absolutely are not responsible for what they say or do. If they will listen, then you can correct them on outdated terms and words that they might not know are bad, but if you know they won't listen, then honestly don't bother, because it takes a toll on you and that's not fair.

On another note, when it comes to stuff like abuse both physically and verbally, tell every responsible adult you can. I know people recommend helplines, but I think you lot know as well as I do that there's only so much they can help with.
Tell your teachers, tell the police, and don't keep telling yourself 'it gets better' because put bluntly, it doesn't.
People can change I won't deny that, but them changing doesn't make the abuse you've already suffered go away.

Self Harm.
Like I've said, that title of this story is wrist cutter, and we all know what that means because I'm sure a lot of you have done and still do it.
See now I would tell you 'don't do it, don't cut yourself' but I know full well that that doesn't do anything, and that you won't listen, so what I will say is this.
If you're going to cut your arms, you use a CLEAN blade so that there's less chance of infection. Do not cut near the wrist or on top of any other main arteries because that can be fatal, and actually instead of killing you it can just really fuck up your arm's movement which will be more annoying if anything.

People cut for different reasons; mine used to be because I liked seeing the blood, and the pain made me feel better.

So, if that's what you want, I can promise you that regardless of how deep you cut, it'll be painful, same goes for blood.

When you have cut yourself, clean it up straight away with water & clean tissue or medical anti bacterial wipes. Dress the wounds, but be sure to use a anti bacterial cream too because again it prevents infection and actually makes it a lot easier when you're taking the dressing off.
I used to sometimes use bandages, so if you do that put PLENTY of anti bac cream on because the blood dries and stick to the bandage which can be horrible to take off. Same really goes for plasters/adhesive pads etc. The nurses used to tell me the more cream the better lmao.

Please for the love of god though, do NOT use makeup to hide healing wounds. I used to do this in school when I was younger so that the teachers wouldn't question me, but it can actually be really harmful and you could actually lose your arm because of it.

I think I've covered most of what I wanted to say, but also if anyone ever needs to talk or just vent, PLEASE message me either on my other account (woobinseok) or even message me on my twitter (@ tardisgays) and I promise I'll do whatever I can to help.

Now that that's out the way, let's talk about the actual story.
When I started writing this, I didn't really have a plot in mind so this can literally go however you guys want it to.

Would you prefer the reader and Levi have a happy ending, where they're both healthy and genuinely living a good life?

Or

Do you want a tragic ending where the reader or Levi dies, and either one of them is left mourning for eternity?

If you have any other ideas, feel free to tell me, I read all the comments x