I have this dream. Constantly. I'm in the waiting room at the hospital. Sitting restlessly. Then I'm called in to see my mother. She's laying down,she doesn't look weak, she looks strong like she's getting better and then suddenly they drag me out of the room and seat me down in the waiting room again and then they wheel her out.
I see them wheeling her out. Covered up in the white body spread. I sit paralyzed, disoriented and bitter. I'm confused. I'm angry. I'm lost. Then I get up and run towards the direction they took her to and the hospital becomes a maze of buildings and I keep running and searching each room, opening every door and I'm back in the waiting room and that corridor is blocked, sealed off from the hospital, from the doctors and nurses and from me. I keep walking around taking every corridor I come across till I circle back to the waiting room. I walk over to the corridor that once was but was just a wall now and I sit on the floor leaning on it with one chorus ringing in my head.
You have lost your mother.
You are lost.
You can't find her.
No one is coming to find you.
