my reckless love- a.t

Théa

One month later...

"Hey al I'm running to the shops do you need anything?" I asked whilst sliding on my shoes and opening the door, clutching my purse to my side.

"No thanks love I think I got everything yesterday!" He called back down from the bathroom peering his head out the door.

"Okay text me if you do!" I waved him off as I shut the door, seconds later I hear a fast shuffling from in the house and the door swings open.

"Don't think yer gettin' away that easy" he grins a pull's me in for a kiss.

I grimace at the toothpaste now on the side of my lip and wiped it off laughing lightly. "I love you Alexander"

"I love you Odette" he gave a cheeky smile and stuck his toothbrush back in his mouth.

It had been a month since the beach day with Jamie and Katie and I'm not going to lie I've been under pressure a lot, my deadline for my book is coming up and I need to go to the very promising lands for a writer... New York, to talk with my publisher, and while I'm there I need to visit my sister in Brooklyn. I haven't told Alex any of this because I don't want him to stress about me, with they're new album in progress I don't want to disrupt him with my burdens but tonight will be the best time to bring it up.

Once arrived at the shops I went to the pharmacy to pick up my refill for birth control and my Benzodiazepines pills. I've had anxiety since I was fourteen. I don't like taking pills, I'm quite bad at taking them on schedule. I should be taking them every day, but I make a habit out of taking them every two days. Alex doesn't know, I don't intend for him to find out. I hide it well enough, him finding out would just add the list of screwed up things about me.

I thank the pharmacist and walk out of the store; I shove the pills into my purse staring at my feet and the ground below me. I pull out my phone hovering over the name id contemplating if it's a good time to call or not. I urge myself anyway and hit the call button.

"Hello?" A voice I haven't heard in a long time but can recognize any where's rings through the phone.

"Hi Théa, how have you been?" I ask the woman on the other end of the phone who I haven't talked to in over a year now while biting my nails.

"I'm um... I've been good... why. why are you calling me Odette?" She takes short pauses every couple of words, like she's almost surprised her own sister is calling, this made my heart ache. We've grown apart ever since she moved to New York with her now ex-boyfriend who I might add, I have never liked. I've offered her to come back and stay with me for a while, numerous times before, but she declined every time I'd bring it up.

"I just wanted to see how you have been, like how's New York treating you and what not" I sigh sitting down in my car, not starting the engine knowing where to go next but just sitting in the empty parking lot of the pharmacy with my phone up to my ear waiting for my sister to respond.

"It's been okay I guess, not much else to discuss about" she mumbled into the phone.

"Okay... we'll I'm sure you've seen the news recently, but I have to meet-"

"Yeah, yeah I saw the news... and your rich new rockstar boyfriend and how you have the perfect life. I get it Odette your life is so fucking perfect. So please if this is why you were calling, to rub it in my face, this conversation is over." Théa snarled with a disgusted tone in her voice that left me shocked, and there she goes. snapping. like that. once more.

"No,  Théa please that's not why, I was just checking up on you and I was going to tell you that I'll be visiting in the next couple of weeks because like I have said before.. you probably saw the news that I have a book coming out. I'm meeting my publisher in New York." I let out a deep breathe that I had been holding for some time now...

"Here? In New York? Odette shit I'm such an asshole, that's amazing. It's really is and I'm sorry if I'm coming off as sarcastic, I really do mean it. It's just that my doctor has me on these new meds, and they aren't working as well as the last ones I've been noticing."

mental illness and addictions run in my family; I have anxiety while my sister has bipolar disorder. I'm worried about her that's why I want her to come to LA and live with me for a while, but I know she's capable of living on her own.

"Hey, it's okay don't worry about it, I just wanted to see if it's fine if when I do come that I can bring Alex? I really want you to meet him Théa, he's a good guy." It was a stretch, but I just want Alex to meet my family, and I want my sister to be the first one he meets.

"Sure, why not I've seen enough news articles about this guy that I think I'm ready. but I swear to god Odette im not gonna kiss up to him just yet. Not for a while." she huffs a light laugh.

"Great, here I'll call you in the next couple of days to discuss the days I'm coming down for, okay?"

"Sounds great, I love you Odie. Thank you so much for checking up on me." Théa sounds tired, mentally tired. She was exhausted.

"Of course, I'm here anytime thé, I'll talk to you later I love you." We said our goodbyes and hung up. I was over the moon. My sister and I were finally in a good spot.

  "Alex! I'm back" I hum stepping into Alex's house where I had been staying over for three days straight now.

"Hey darlin' how were the shops?" he asked before slithering his arm around my waist and pulling me close and briefly kissed my neck.

I always smiled at the feeling of his touch and how it makes me long for more.

"It was good, I actually talked to my sister for the first time in over a year" I say making my way to the kitchen for a glass of water

"Oh really? How'd that go?" Al wondered and propped himself against the counter with his elbow steadying him.

"It actually went better than I thought it would." I say raising my eyebrows. "Oh, I also have to discuss something with you."

"Okay let's go to the livin' room and get situated." He suggested. I nodded my head and followed him.

  Once we were laying together on the couch, I propped myself up with my hands that were resting on top of Alex's chest as he lied down.

"So, like I said I talked to my sister today... and you know how I have that book coming up, well I have to meet with my publisher in New York about it, and my sister lives in Brooklyn so I thought that maybe we can both go there? It's totally fine if you can't or don't wa-" I rambled and rambled on until al interrupted.

"Love. yes of course I want to meet yer sister, I'm more than happy to go with you, and do you think I'd let Ya wander New York City by yerself?" He started tickling my sides making me collapse in laughter.

"Alexander David Turner! Let me go!" I laugh while escaping his grasp until I tumble on the floor. "You're lucky I don't have the energy to move Alex!" I say dramatically as he peers over the couch extending his arm to help me up. But instead, I pull him down with fits of laughter.

we didn't stop laughing until we would catch our breaths and steal kisses from one another.