Pride Month Oneshots

Day 5-Seroroki-Closeted Love

Dear Journal.

Love is love. 

That's what they always tell us.

So why is it that they don't want me to show them who I love?

Why do I have to sit here and hide who I am so they can be happy?

I don't care about what that flaming pile of trash wants.

I'm not gonna be the number 1 hero.

I want to save people, but I'm not going to force someone to give up their rightful place just so he can have bragging rights. 

The man who trained me expects me to train and train and get the number one spot after him.

I wouldn't mind taking that spot. But it's because he doesn't deserve it. I want to take it and give it to someone who deserves it. Be it a pro or one of my classmates. 

And then there's the fact that I'm not allowed to bring home anyone. Unless it's a girl. 

...But what if I don't want it to be a girl?

What happens if it's a boy?

Or even...neither. Just...someone?

I've had my eye on someone for a while. 

They don't classify themselves as a boy or a girl. They just...are.

And they are amazing. They are beautiful, they are handsome, they are...perfect.

And yea, they may not have the most attractive appearance to everyone else but looks never really mattered to me. 

I guess all that I really cared about is that they make themselves presentable. 

But this person, they're smart, and they're funny. And they have this energy that you can't help but wanna join. And I don't just mean when they've had a hit. Though that just adds another layer to their appeal. 

 I just...I like them. Maybe more. I like everything about them. And I've had crushes on my other classmates in the past. Both guys and girls. I don't see a problem with it. We didn't last with the ones I did date. We're better off as friends and that's fine. But Sero? I think they're more. I think we could be more. 

Except for the fact that I can't. What would that man do to them if I brought them home? The power he holds, the money he has. He could ruin their life. So I can't do that.

I haven't told any of my classmates either. It's not that I don't think they'll accept me, because we don't call it class 1-Gay for no reason. Plenty of people have come out already. 

But what happens if it gets back to him. I don't want another person brought into that piece of crap's hold. 

I'll deal with the pain that I need to if it means they don't have to suffer. If I need to stay silent so that they stay safe, then that's what I'll do. I'll stay quiet. I'll stay hidden. 

Fuyumi knows but she knows how homophobic the man that lives with us is so she stays quiet. But she's helped me plan out outfits for dates. She supports me silently. Which I do appreciate. And I know if I came out, she'd help me. 

But I can't yet. I need to make sure Sero is safe. I want to see their unique smile when I did something nice. Hear that laugh because of me. Appreciate how they look in their uniform. But I guess I'll have to make preparations from afar. I'll start off by being friends with them, and maybe someday, when I have a place just for us, where we can get away from the world, maybe then I'll be brave enough to tell them that I want us to be more. 

Then we can dream together under the stars. No longer apart. 

It won't be me dreaming alone anymore.

Heroes by day, dreamers by night.

I'm running out of free time for now, but I'll dream again later.

Staying in the closet for now, 

Todoroki Shoto.