Avengers: Reader Inserts

A Loss ~ Bucky Barnes x Reader

Word Count: 2,125ish

Summary: You find out some news, but also overhear a conversation that affects the news. You go out on a mission, knowing you shouldn't.

Warnings: injury and loss of a small life.

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It was weird. You hadn't even realized you were 6 weeks late until you woke up, throwing up on the floor right next to Bucky's bed. Thank heavens for FRIDAY's immediate response for calling the maid and that your boyfriend was out on his morning run with Steve. You cleaned yourself up and quickly left for the store before anyone could even notice you were gone.

You were anxious the whole time. Knee bouncing, hands shaking, heart racing. You felt like you were going to pass out as you allowed yourself to pee on that little stick you had just bought. You paced inside the bathroom of your private room. You didn't want to chance Bucky walking in on you. Plus, you were terrified. Bucky and you and been dating for a little over a year now and not once had the two of you talked about marriage or family. You wanted that all with him, but you feared that he didn't want that all with you.

When your phone's timer went off, you froze. It took you what felt like hours to convince yourself to look at the results. It was positive. You were pregnant. The joy that filled your heart did not fill your eyes. Tears of worry filled your eyes and your mind began to wonder how Bucky would take the news.

"FRIDAY?" You called out. "Where's Bucky?"

"Sargent Barnes is currently watching TV with Captain Rogers in the common room," the AI responded. "Would you like me to get him for you?"

"No, I can get him myself."

You were shaking with excitement and fear as you went down the hall, heading towards the common room. As you drew near, you could hear the men talking about something. You listened closely.

"You can't tell me you didn't think that baby in the diaper commercial wasn't cute, Buck," Steve teased.

"I never said it wasn't!" Bucky replied. "I just just 'eh'."

"You and Y/N ever talk about having kids? Starting a family?"

"No," Bucky responded, almost too quickly. You froze, hiding behind the wall to still listen in. "That's not for me. Maybe back when we were still in the 40's, definitely not now. Can you imagine, me, being a father?" Bucky scoffed. "Carrying around a child with this metal arm? What stories would I tell it anyway? About that time I murdered Stark's parents? Can you imagine-"

"Alright, alright," Steve chuckled. "I get it. Have you at least talked to Y/N about this? She might have an opinion on the matter too."

"No I haven't. And I don't plan on it until she brings it up."

"Seriously, punk?"

"I don't want to ruin what we have."

"And you've never thought that, with all the sex you two have, a baby might just accidentally happen for the two of you?"

"It couldn't. She's on the pill and we always use protection."

"Always?"

"Whatever the case is, she's on the pill. And I'm not meant to be a father. Can we drop this now and go back to watching football?"

You handed your had covering your mouth, trying not to let them here your sobs. Quickly, yet as quietly as you could, you ran too your room. You ordered FRIDAY to lock everyone, including Bucky, out as you curled up onto the floor and cried. You had no idea of what to do.