Follow your heart

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Ryan was surprised to find Hoseok in front of her door. Her emotions were still running wild so she did not think a moment before she pulled him inside and hugged him tightly. She did not know why but that was exactly what she needed right now, a hug. And after a surprising "oh!" Hoseok did bring his arms around her too and held her close.
'Why does this feels so good? Why does his body against mine feel so right?'
Ryan took a step back, looking up at Hoseok's smiling face before leaning closer to capture his lips with hers.
It felt strange, not what she had been expecting and when Hoseok pushed her away, she did not mind at first. However a second later, it hurt her heart that she had no one that loved her.
"Ryan! I am sorry but this can't happen!" Hoseok exclaimed hurriedly.
"Why not?" It was not that Ryan intended to kiss him again, but she felt offended by his reaction as his face almost displayed some kind of disgust.
"Can we talk? I mean a calm talk about everything that happened to you today."
Ryan looked into his eyes and now she could see the sympathy, the emotion of love even but as a friend. She gestured for him to go to the living room as she went to the kitchen to grab two glasses of water even if a glass of whiskey was what she really wanted. As she walked back to the room, she looked at the floor, embarrassed at her action moments ago.

"Ryan, look at me! Do you really like me?"
"Yes, I do like you." She replied without hesitation, "but I guess more as a friend, a really good friend."
Ryan could see the burden falling off her friend's shoulder.
"Ooofff, good to know because I do not want to break your heart, as I only love you as a friend as well."
Ryan turned her gaze back on the flood as Hoseok scooted closer.
"Don't be so downhearted, every single one of the BTS members loves you. Some more than others as you already know."
"What do you mean?"
"Yoongi-hyung asked me to give this back to you. I know you don't remember it for now but he really loves you with all of his heart."
Ryan took the golden feather pendant in her hand.
"He gave this to you as a sign of your immense love for each other."
It felt heavy now that the little piece of jewelry held a deeper meaning. Ryan closed her eyes and took a long breath.
"So, I and Yoongi...?"
"Yes, you were in love for some time before your accident."
Ryan shook her head as she tried hard to remember any moment she could have shared with Yoongi.
"I can't... I can't remember it?" She exclaimed exasperated as Hoseok pulled her closer caressing smoothly over her back to calm her as tears were streaming down her face.
"Then don't. You don't need to force back memories, just give him a chance to make you fall in love with him again?" Hoseok put her at arm's length. "Please, his heart is aching, aching for you. And I am sure that deep down, your heart is still beating for him."
Ryan felt exhausted by all the revelations and events of the day.
"I need time. This is all too much." She let Hoseok know as she let her head rest against the back of the couch.
"I know...we know and that is why we try to not force you to remember. It will come back sooner or later." The dancer stood up and walked towards the door.
"I will let you rest now. I will tell neither Yoongi nor the others about the kiss but I will let him know that you need more time to let him close again. Goodnight Ryan. Have sweet dreams."
Then Hoseok disappeared out of the door, leaving Ryan with all these weird feelings and thoughts. Soon she fell asleep as the mental exhaustion was too much for her to handle.

That night her dreams were very vivid like she knew the place where she was currently waiting with a drink in her hand. A light summer breeze was messing with her hair when she felt two strong hands on her shoulders. She leaned back, knowing who was standing behind her. Her heart was racing as she felt his lips on top of her head. She closed her eyes, as he murmured her name with an "I Love You." She stood up to set the glass on the table as the arms of the man that made her heart flutter came around her waist. They swung from side to side to the music that was playing in the background as his chin rested on her shoulder.
"I won't be gone for long, Princess." He kissed her neck gently.
"And when I am back we will be together forever as husband and wife."
Another kiss before she turned around and her lips found his for a deep passionate kiss. She felt so good, so safe and every fiber of her skin reacted to his touches as goosebumps spread over her body.
"I love you so much, Min Yoongi!" She mumbled as she hugged the man tightly.
Ryan woke up with her heart beating fast. This cannot be true. Was he really the man she loved? She closed her eyes again but only more images of Yoongi flooded her mind. Unbelievably her heartbeat started to calm down and she fell back asleep with a smile on her face.