Symmetrical Scars

2) Guardian Angel

"Positive thoughts create a doorway through which guardian angels may enter."
-Author Unknown
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"What were you doing so close to the edge?! You could've killed yourself!"

That was kinda the point. But... h-he looks genuinely terrified... Why? He wasn't the one to almost go over a cliff.

I'm laying down over the top of Kid on the pavement, straddling him with my arms up by his head, holding me away from him. I quickly roll off of him and sit off to the side. Does he know what I was doing?

"You should be more careful!" He scolds and stands up from the ground, and turns to me. I guess he really doesn't know what I was trying to do?

Kid holds out his hand to help me up, and I simply stare at his outstretched fingers. Nobody has ever actually helped me up before...

No! Jace is going to literally kill me if he knows I actually spoke to someone! And he's a boy no less!

I carefully stand up on my own, trying to ignore the pain and soreness of my old and new bruises. I shouldn't still be here. I should be dead at the bottom of the academy right now! I-I still can't deal with any more of this!

"I wanted to thank you for helping me in class earlier." Kid says, "You really didn't need to, I could've gone to detention myself."

So he did say thank you... And he stayed after school for an hour to do it... No, that doesn't change anything, just one drop of clean water doesn't clean the ocean. Ergh! I'm contradicting myself!

"I-it's fine... I really didn't have anything to do after school anyway." I whisper out nervously, "And we're even now, you saved my life. So thank you."

"Um, but I really need to go now... I have some shopping to do..." I continue, maybe I can find some other way to go-

"Mind if I come with you?" Kid answers instantly, as if he knew I was going to- he can't know! Can he? How long was he standing there? If he had seen me getting closer to the edge, he would've stopped me sooner, right? Unless he didn't even assume I'd jump...

"U-um... I don't know..." Jace could see him walking with me, and then I wouldn't have to do this myself. I looked into Kid's eyes, and they still had that scared and worried look, something that I'd never seen on anyone before, except on my mother...

Something inside me clicked, and I couldn't control my own mouth. "F-fine." My voice said, and I shuddered. If Jace heard about any of this, I'd be dead in the water. I mean it's really all the same, whether I do it myself or Jace does it for me- but I don't want to die by the hands of him. If I'm going, I want it to be because I'm ready, not because I pissed off Jace. Kid will have to leave me alone at some point today anyway, I do it then.

Kid smiles softly at me, and I proceed to shakily walk towards the stairs of the academy. Hopefully I'll be able to make it down the stairs without Kid noticing that anything's wrong, I'll just need to bite my tongue and swallow the torture. I carefully take the first step down the stairs, and I have to bite my tongue to keep from screaming. Pain erupts throughout my body as I put my body weight all into one leg so forcefully. I try to control my breathing and make it steadier before taking the next step, again having to suffocate my shrieks inside me so I don't let Kid see anything.

"Are you alright?" Kid asks quietly, and I cringe at the ground. I'm not a very good liar.

"U-um... Yeah..." Think up a lie. Think up a lie. "I'm j-just a bit sore from..."

Lie. Lie. Lie.

"A mission? That I went on, recently... It was a bit crazy..." I finish, Kid doesn't look like he completely believes me, but he thankfully doesn't ask any more questions.