secret love song [corpse husband]

13. just downhill from here

He regretted everything a little too late.

Laying on her bed, with only her sheets covering them, made him realize how he wasn't ready to do it. The smell of breakfast just made things worse, he was not fucking ready.

But ready for what?

As he dressed, his brain tried to come up with an answer for that question. What was he so scared of? It's not like Venus was his girlfriend, she never pressured him into anything.

He stepped out of her room and the sight of the pink haired girl setting a cup of tea made his stomach turn.

"I know you don't drink coffee, so I made you a cup of tea." She said signaling the table. "I read, uh, I read somewhere that warm tea is good for a-uh, sore throat..."

Pancakes, eggs, bacon and fruit.

"I always make this when people stay over." Mostly for her siblings and Colby.

"I need to go, something came up." It's all he can think of.

"Is everything okay?" She asks, she comes a little close with her hand out, trying to reach his arm to try and show him support.

"I don't know, it's a family thing. I'll explain later." He's about to open the door, but last minute he turns around. "I'm so sorry, I really am."

It's been a few days since that disastrous day, he hasn't replied her texts and the guilt is eating him alive.

He didn't even thought of the fact that he had invited her to come down to San Diego with him. Or the fact that he fucked her and left her the next morning without really explaining.

[i M e s s a g e]

NOV 28, 12:34 am.

v🖤: i just need to know you are okay

corpsey: sorry
im okay
everything's okay actually
it never was not okay...

v🖤: oh god
i was so worried
wdym it never was not okay?

corpsey: i lied
i just
i couldn't stay

v🖤: wow
everything i ever wanted to hear🤩
you didn't had to fucking lie
why do you have to make such a big deal out of everything?

corpsey: im not ready to be in a relationship

v🖤: dude what
so
was i just something to kill time or...?
you got what you wanted and then you disappear?
i thought we were friends?

corpsey: we are
we are friends

v🖤: when you said you liked me were you lying?

corpsey: no
im just not ready

v🖤: that's such a fuckboy thing to say
aren't you a little bit too old for that shit?
if you didn't want anything more than sex you could have said so instead of playing with me
you complicate things so much

corpsey: venus wait
i do want to be with you

v🖤: wtf corpse

corpsey: im not ready to be in a relationship with you

v🖤: you're just making it worse, please stop talking

corpsey:  you are so fucking perfect
i just realized that if we do this
one of us is getting hurt

v🖤: and you rather it be me?

corpsey: im just not ready venus
and i care so fucking much about you
but im just not ready
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