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Part two: Father

Estella

Last thing I remember was saying yes. Lord what did I get myself into. What do I ever get myself into. We have been in the car for like 5 minutes and it's so quiet. What should I say. I'm literally about to have sex with a man I just met. No don't get ahead of yourself he might just need your help with something. I don't really fucking know anymore. I don't even do casual sex or hook ups because I never found a point to nor did I ever have time to. I've used more foul language in my head than out loud, that's no good. 

"Estella are you ok?" He questions. It quickly took me out of my thoughts when I heard him finally say my name or say something. I need to focus more on life and not in my head. I look at him looking back at me and slightly nod my head softly. Out of habit I bite my inner lip hiding any sense of confusion that is in my face. 

"Yea just a bit light headed." Honestly. Wait he's gonna think I don't want to go spend the night with him. Or whatever we are gonna do. I need to clarify so I don't sound so stupid to myself. Being the daughter of a well known man for who knows what I need to expect anything. I don't know if people out here know who my papa is but I don't really tell a lot any way. I don't even know what he is but all I know is that he's well known and feared. Haha, think about anything but your father. 

What do I say to him. I don't do sex and haven't for a while. Don't say anything bitch. You know how you have your good and bad side on each shoulder well the bad one is talking to me and I don't like it. Thank you very much for the un needed input. 

"Do you want me to take you home?" Once again taken out of my thoughts. "No I'm fine the alcohol is just starting to kick in." I answered weakly. Oh I need water. I feel my throat drier as the seconds pass. What time is it. I take out my phone and see its 1:36 am. God it's late. How did the time even go by so quickly last time I checked it was like 10:00 something. I think? I put my phone back in my bag and lean my head against the seat. I feel the car move for around 20 minutes as my eyes were closed. Couldn't even tell you what time it was. 

I think he heard my thoughts because he stopped the car in-front of my home. Or more like the apartment my dad got me if I didn't want to go to our primary house. I didn't really like being here because my apartment was at the top floor and I'm not the biggest fan of heights. We always get ready at my papas house and today was no difference only because I keep most of my personal things over there and my school books and bags over here.

WAIT HOW DOES HE KNOW WHERE I LIVE. Or where I have a place. Hot stalker? Oh please this isn't like those cheesy movies that the television always shows. 

"You should get going before we stay here all night." I really have to stop living in fucking lala land ugh. I need sleep. And Now. I take the seatbelt off and open the door. Do I really want to move no, but does my bed sound more appealing? Absolutely. 

I get out of the car quick and before I left I looked behind me to see regret in his eyes. Well guess we will never meet again. I wave at him and turn around walking into the building. Good Night Alessandro nice knowing you. I walk up to my room after making sure everything is locked, and knock out. 

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It's been a week and now I'm here sitting in class waiting for my professor to start. My class at the moment is in a class because we first need to know the ground rules and to see if we still want to take this course. I'm honestly double thinking it, if he won't start this class I'm leaving because hungry and tired from studying for up coming quizzes we have. 

God I can't get him out of my head he's just a guy I can go get another one to actually sleep with or at least distract myself with. But his lips. His touch. His voice. I can't get over the fact that he wanted me and I blew it. The way his eyes drew me in. Not like Alex because his eyes only had one thing. Lust. But Alessandro's he had a mix of emotions in his eyes. Like he didn't know what to say to me.