tubbo angst.

Calm..

TW: panic attack, crying, screaming, mention of abuse/abuser, hurting, being alone, cutting, sadness, cursing
This is IRL Tubbo angst :,D

(The song has a little bit of inappropriate parts)
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Tubbos POV

I'm alone.
Again.
Ranboo and Tommy are hanging out at..

...

I don't even know where.

Wilburs with them as well.

They didn't invite me, and.. I didn't ask.
It's none of my business.
I would just ruin it.
Like I always do.

I stare at the wall.
It's really the only thing I feel like doing.
Nothing.

...

I haven't eaten since they left,
6 hours.
They probably won't come back.
Should I call?

no...

They'd hate me for that.

NO ONES POV

Tubbo starts tearing up.
He wipes his tears so that when they come back, they won't see his red eyes.
He keeps on wiping his tears until he eventually gives up and cry's.
He puts his hands around his legs which are pushed up against his chest and puts his head down.
He cry's more.
His heart starts beating quicker.

He's having a panic attack.
No one can help him.
No one will help him.

He'll die.

WITH RANBOO AND TOMMY

"I really hope Tubbo likes his gifts!" Ranboo exclaimed in pure excitement.
"Yeah..." Tommy said, in a concerned tone.
"What's wrong?"
"How long have we been gone? It feels like a while. What if he's scared? Or hurt?" Tommy started to worry. Tubbo always had found ways to hurt himself in the past, because of his.... father. As he called him. He said he stopped.

He didn't.

"I'll check the time, lemme get my phone out. We left at... *insert the time like 7 hours ago*

"ITS *insert time*! OH S**T!"
"ITS WHAT?!?"
Tommy grabbed Ranboos phone in a panic, not even remembering his own in his pocket.
"NO, NO, NO!" Tommy panicked.
"HE'LL HURT HIMSELF!" Tommy yelled. He immediately covered his mouth. He swore to never tell anyone about his... old habits...
Ranboo stared in shock as Tommy got worried.
"He.... he'll.... he will what Tommy?" Ranboo said in an intimidating tone.
"ILL TELL YOU LATER, ILL GET WILBUR, YOU GET TO THE CAR!"
Ranboo was mad, but he ran to the car, worried for Tubbo.
When he got to the car, he thought...

Tubbo hurts himself...
Tubbos.... he....
Why wouldn't he tell us.....
Why did he do that.....
Why.....
Why would such a happy kid do that?

Tommy ran to get Wilbur, who was too busy shopping.
Wilbur noticed Tommy running at him with tears in his eyes, he had left the bags of thing to buy at the floor.
"TOMMY?!?" Wilbur yelled. He looked back to where they were, Ranboo wasn't there.
"WHAT HAPPENED? WHERES RANBOO?? ARE YOU OKAY?"
Tommy thought for a moment.
He swore. To never tell anyone.
But...
Now he broke it...
It's... it's important..
I'm sorry Tubbo.