💡From The Diary Of Noorin💡

Chapter 15

If you have at least one person that genuinely supports you, count yourself blessed.

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Two days later, around 9:00pm I was seated on the swing chair by the window looking at the beautiful view of river thames while Salwa had already slept. But actually half of my mind wasn't there at all, I was still thinking about the note that Azaan wrote to me. By Allah I really miss him and I so badly wanted to see him, I don't know why some part of me still didn't want to accept him. I can still recall each word from that note;

Assalamu 'alaikum;

Alhamdulillah! Alhamdulillah!! Alhamdulillah!!!

Congratulations Noor! I'm really happy for you, you did it! It wasn't easy, but with all the difficulties, you didn't give up and now you've achieved. I'm glad you were able to make it through.

Seeing how happy you're today, I'm glad and I hope you'll always find yourself as happy as you're today. I hope your dreams take you to the corners of your smiles.

Noor! I'm sorry for being clingy, I'm sorry for everything. My life is kind of a mess and to be honest that terrifies me. I'm sorry Noor! I'm sorry I left without notifying you, I'm sorry I shattered your trust, I'm sorry please. Believe me I didn't do it to hurt your feelings. I'll be glad if you find it in your heart to forgive me. Please give me the chance to redeem myself. Noor! I can't manage to fill the gap hole your absence caused! I really missed you.

Don't worry, you don't have to think much. Take as much time as you wish, I promise to wait until then. Just don't let go of me! Bit-rajjaaki!; please!.

Congratulations once again.
AZAAN

*sigh*

I'm really confused about this, how do I tackle all these? Life is surely difficult. I'm always there for everyone that has needed my help but when it comes to my own needs and decisions, I feel scared, confused and like not feeling brave anymore.

I sighed and took my phone that was beside me. I noticed that I missed Akhi's call, I didn't even hear my phone ringing because I was lost in my thoughts. I dialed his number and he picked on the second beep.

"Hello! Were you sleeping? Hope I didn't wake you up".

"No I wasn't and I don't know how I didn't hear my phone ringing. Hope everything's alright".

"Uhm...somehow, are you free now?".

"Yep! Are you taking me out? You know I'm always free". I grinned.

"Wow! This girl and outing! You sure are something. Ain't you getting tired of going out?" He asked.

"Nop! Never!". I rolled my eyes.

"Huh! If you want then we can go out tomorrow but mind you, only me and you. What did I said?".

"Only us". I replied giggling.

"I said me and you Noorin! Seriously Noorin only the two of us, if not forget about it".

"Okay okay fahimt; I understood...Is that all?"

"Yeah! Good girl...I have something for you tomorrow Inshaa Allah, will see you then".

"Alright, may Allah spare our lives to witness tomorrow, but what time are we going out?". I inquired.

"After Asr Inshaa Allah...ehen don't dare to tell those two chickens most especially the big one".

"I promise". I said laughing. Akhi is something sometimes Allah. He's calling Salwa and Rufaidah chickens again.