I Loved You Darling (Life As I Know It Sequel)

Pick up the pieces

I sighed as I rubbed my face. "Fuck". I was so angry but all I wanted was for her to be ok. How do you confront someone to help them without going over the edge. "Rick. I need your help". His cigarette crackled as it burned down. "How?"

I waved him to follow me. He tossed his cigarette down and put it out as we walked in the bus. "Sit on that side, please". He sat down and I walked back to the bunk and tapped Shelby on the shoulder. She rolled over and said nothing. "Come here". I extended out my hand and she grabbed it. "Grab your blanket".

I walked her to the couch and pointed for her to sit next to Ricky and I sat on the other side of her. I tossed the blanket on the three of us and turned on the tv to whatever was in the DVD player. I said nothing but waited for her to say something... Anything.

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Shelby POV

I wanted to talk but I felt like I lost my voice. I felt horrible that I kept that secret from him. Who does that. I felt like he was so mad at me. I was in between my two best friends so why did I feel so fucking alone? Not to mention bring Autumn into Ricky's life. How did he not hate me.

I tried to hide the one tear sliding down my face as I quickly wiped it away, but it turn into those silent tears. You know the ones that come right before you break down? You can feel it in your chest and you even try to hold your breath to fight it? The ones that psychical hurt. But once one slips out, they all come out.

I threw my arms around Chris neck and just started to cry. I busted into tears for the first time in over a year and a half. He jumped when I threw myself around him so suddenly but he grabbed me just as quickly too.

I felt Ricky rubbing my back and I let go of Chris then hugged Ricky. "I'm sorry, I feel like I've caused such a messed. Maybe I should have stayed away". Chris pulled me off of Ricky and looked me in the eyes. "Don't say that. We're happy your back". "But look at all the worry and extra stress I've brought. Emmett, Autumn, the o'd". Ricky sighed. "We don't care. Just some bumps in the road". "You don't get how I feel though..". Ricky grabbed my wrist and I tried to pull away but he held tighter as he moved my bracelet. "Yes we have an idea... Shel you can't do this to yourself". I pulled my arm away and bust into tears again and Chris just pulled me into his lap and held me. He pulled the blanket on me and I just sat there and cried. "I'm sorry". "Hush it's okay... Just no more".

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"What are you doing there?". I stared at the little boy who was just standing there not saying a word. I walked closer to him and looked at his torn outfit. It looked old like something my grandpa use to wear when he was a boy.

"Are you alright?". He held out his arms saying nothing as I walked closer I say his eyes change pitch black. Almost soul less. He opened his mouth a black tar slowly started pouring out of his mouth. I backed away as the liquid started to slowly get closer and closer to my face. I tried to scream but when I did, I only tasted tar and chemicals as the black filled my lungs. I couldn't breathe and I was fading fast

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"Shel". Someone was shaking me light as I snapped back to reality. I was still tightly wrapped in Chris's arms. Rick was asleep curled up on the other side of the couch and the dvd was at the menu. We must have all fallen asleep.

"Are you ok? You sound out of breath. Like you couldn't breathe". I explained the dream to him and tried to relax. "That's kinda fucked up". I couldn't help but smirk. "This coming from the man that knows all about fucked up things?". He smiled. "We should really go to bed. "Northern invasion is in like 7 hours". I nodded. "Can I squeeze in with you? .. I don't want to be alone after everything that's happened". He nodded and I got off of his lap. I shook Ricky. "I'm going to bed, you should too. It's late". He grumbled and shut his eyes. I followed Chris to the bunks and got in his then he got in behind me, holding me tightly. He kissed my head and sighed. "Goodnight. Please sleep well".