I Loved You Darling (Life As I Know It Sequel)

Ex Girlfriends And Broken Souls

It took two days before we got to the festival and we got there at the crack of dawn. We had to get there a day before the actual festival so they could do a run threw of their performance and sound check.

I decided it was a good time to start shooting stuff so I grab one of the extras and had him start filming. We filmed they talking to each other, setting stuff up, practicing, other bands and just random shit. I know the real important stuff wouldn't be till tomorrow but still, better get extra footage then not enough. I was even able to sneak up on Chris and Ricky and scare the shit out of them a couple times. Needless to say, best job ever.

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They had done their run threw and we're doing some little stuff here and there so I leaned against the gate and pulled out a cigarette. I exhaled as this pretty red head covered in tattoos approached me. "Have you seen Chris by any chance?". I pointed to the stage and bus. She walked off without saying thank you and suddenly Ricky appeared next to me. "What did she just say to you!". "Well hello to you to! And nothing she just asked where Chris was, and I pointed her in his direction". He shook his head and exhaled. "That's his ex girlfriend Megan. I have no idea why she is here but it can't be good".

Ricky and I looked over at each other then dashed to see what was going on. We got close enough that we could hear them. "Megan your out of your mind. The answer is no". "Chris you don't understand. I had a lot of time to think and I'm sorry I was such a bitch but I'm pregnant". I wanted to scream. Ricky's face went pale. "We had sex a little over two months ago when you were whining about some bitch and I'm -". Chris looked pissed. "Enough! I wore a condom and don't you fucking talk about her! If your so pregnant then you can get a test and show me! And if you are, we would have to make sure it IS mine". "This stupid girl is stuck so far in your head that you won't believe someone you actually dated". "Ya someone that I dated and someone that cheated on me. Why would I believe a lair and a cheater?".

Alright so maybe I should have stayed where I was with Ricky but I couldn't stand this girl right now. "Chris!". He looked up. "I need your help with something please!". He started to walk over and Megan grabbed him. "We're not done!". I walked over to them. "Let him go". "What are you going to do about it? Who do you think you are anyways!". "It doesn't matter who I am. And if you don't piss off, I'm going to make you eat your teeth". She swung a punch but I moved and she missed. I punched her in the face and she held her face. "You cunt!". I tackled her down to the ground and slammed her head into the ground. She punched me right in the ribs as Chris was pulling me off her and the guys came running. "I suggest you leave". She pouted and wiped the blood off from under her nose. "Chris you should be with me". "No I shouldn't. Balz, Ryan, Ricky. See Megan out and tell security not to let her in again!". Balz walked up behind her. "Move it". "I'll be back for you doll face! Just you wait". "I can't fucking wait! Come back and I'll mess up your face worse!". I flipped her off

We walked inside the bus and Chris pointed for my to sit on the couch. "What is with you!? Don't fight". "She started it! I had to finish it!". "Enough please". I hung my head and felt like shit. "I'll clean up these couple cuts for you". He walked to the bathroom and got a wash rag and placed it to the couple cuts she actually managed to get in. "Ow that stings. What the fuck". "It's rubbing alcohol".

He cleaned them up and I couldn't help myself from it bubbling up out of my mouth. "Who was she taking about? Who were you whining about?". He looked down and walked to the bathroom to put the tag away. "Just a girl". I nodded. He wasn't going to tell me. Ricky came in to grab his other pack of cigarettes. "Perfect. Since I answered your question you can answer mine. What secret were you keeping from me in Ricky's good bye letter?". I got pissed. "Ricky you told him about that!". "What! No! I didn't tell anyone". "I found the letter and read it. Were you two hooking up?".

I lost it. I screamed. Just screamed. "No you dense ass! I never hooked up with Ricky. Ever. I went to the ER for my own reasons and told Ricky to keep it a secret because you didn't need to know. And then I caught you with autumn and decided not to ever tell you!". "Tell me what!". "Tell you that I had a positive pregnancy test and faked being hurt so I had an excuse to go to the ER to make sure I wasn't pregnant and I found out I wasn't pregnant and not only that but I can't get pregnant. I didn't know how to handle the news that I can't ever have kids so I told Ricky not to tell anyone. Then I saw you with autumn and left that night. Whole story, swear to god". He was quiet, real quiet. "You could tell him your problem but not me?". I sighed. "He opened the door when I was taking the test. I didn't just confront him and tell him my problems. We were just starting to be friends and I didn't want to be "that girl" like Megan just pulled so I kept it to myself".

Can you believe he just walked out? I was the one that couldn't have kids and he walked out on me? I felt like running again. I really did. Running away from him. Seems like every time I get close, I go to steps back. I sat on the couch and sighed. I didn't run after him. What was the point? He wasn't my boyfriend nor was he ever and I could almost bet my life that he would never be mine. What was the point of all of this? I wasn't good enough to be loved. I mean hell, Emmett beat me and almost killed me and Chris was breaking my heart which honestly felt just as bad if not worse as the psychical pain.

I had to end this.

For good.