The fear of falling apart (Frerard)

Chapter 3

I woke up to the sound of loud music. I was in shock and I didn't know were I was. I fell off the bed and laded on something that definitely wasn't the floor. My vision was finally clear and The first thing I saw was Gerard's confused face looking at me. Our faces were only an inch apart and I quickly rolled off of him.

''Who the fuck sets Pierce The Veil for a morning alarm?'' I recognized the song.

''Me.'' Gerard reached for his phone and turned it off. I was laying on my back, breathing heavily, my hands crossed on my stomach and my knees up. ''You seem too cool to be one of Mikey's friends'' Gerard got up and tried to fix his hair. I sat up and noticed Mikey was not in the room. ''You're not an ass, like they are'' He laughed at himself and walked into the bathroom leaving the door open.

''How are you so sure about that?'' I followed him leaning against the door frame and crossing my arms.

''Well, I can see that you suffer from social anxiety'' We made eye contact in the bathroom mirror. ''I truly doubt that you're a bully'' He smiled at me showing his teeth.

''How do you know that?'' I was surprised by his words.

''That panic attack was obviously from too many people being around you'' He grabbed a toothbrush and put toothpaste on it. ''Mikey forgot about you for a minute and you coldn't feel safe''

''Oh'' Is all I could respond with. No one ever payed that much attention to me. ''Where's Mikey?'' I broke the silence.

''Downstairs I guess'' He said while brushing his teeth. I took the opportunity and put on my clothes while Gerard was still in the bathroom.

''Sorry for falling on you'' I stuck my head in the bathroom one last time before walking out of the bedroom. I jogged downstairs looking around for Mikey. I walked into the kitchen and saw him preparing cereal.  ''Why didn't you wake me?'' I walked over to him grabbing the bowl he offered me.

''You looked very comfortable in my brother's bed'' He paused smiling. ''I just didn't want to ruin that'' He laughed putting his bowl down on the table and sitting down.

''Thanks, I guess'' I sat down by him and ate a spoon full of cereal. ''Where's my mum?'' I finally entered the real world.

''She left'' He didn't make eye contact with me. ''My dad will drive us to school and I've already got your bag ready'' He said looking up at me from his food.

''Ofcourse she left'' I sighed almost done with my breakfast. ''I have to go to the bathroom.'' I finished my cereal and grabbed my bowl.

''Leave it'' Mikey spoke ''I'll clean it up'' He said standing up and taking the bowl from me.

''Thanks'' I smiled and searched around in my memory from last night where the bathroom was. I closed the door behind me, unzipped my pants and took a piss. I flushed the toilet and washed my hands. I can't stand people who don't wash their hands after they use the toilet. It's disgusting. I looked in the mirror. I didn't look as bad as I thought I did. I ran my fingers through my hair and fixed my shirt. I got out of the bathroom and walked back to the dining room where Mikey was. He handed me my bag, I swung it over my shoulder and  grabbed my jacket .

''Gerard hurry the fuck up!'' He yelled upstairs and we walked outside. I was really curious why they hated each other so much, but I didn't want to be too nosy. I just have to deal with it. ''Front or back?'' Mikey turned his head to me.

''Back is good'' I didn't want to sit near his dad. The car was already waiting and I heard hurried footsteps behind me. They were Gerard's. We entered the car, Mikey in the front seat, me and Gerard in the back. We drove off without anyone saying a word. I felt awkward and confused. I barely know these people and mum left me alone with them. Bitch. I felt like someone was watching me and I turned my head. It was Gerard. With his hazel eyes and black hair he studied my face, like it was the most interesting thing in the world. ''Why are you staring at me?'' I whispered so only he could hear me. ''You're freaking me out.''