Padfoot's Rose | Sirius Black love Story

7. First Day

CW/: This chapter contains discussion of attempted sexual assault.

The next morning came far too quickly and with it my anxiety sored. My nerves getting the better of me resulted in several trips to the bathroom for the rather unpleasant experience of tasting the welcome feasts for a second time. All before seven am. My nerves were not the only reason I chose to skip breakfast but my aversion to a rather pompous old house mate. Id vowed to myself that if I could manage to id avoid any contact with that dungeon bat.

Though the fates seemed to have something else in mind.

"Evans" his monotonous voice drawled from the doorway of my classroom.

Refusing to face him, I kept my back to him, my eyes fixed on  the view of the wamping willow just outside my window.

"Oh so its Evans still is it You're?" I laughed, my fist clenching. "Youre a long way from he dungeons Severus. Run along ive a class to prep for."

I could tell that he made no attempt to leave, the silence was deading and uncomfortable. The thing about severus Snape was even as children he could never tell when he was being a pompous pain in the ass and down right creepy.

"I didn't know-" he began.

"Did know what severus? That I was still alive? That I wasn't dead? That's insurvived the hell your pals put me through? Of course you didn't cause you never cared! You never cared. I was never your friend I was the tag along, the younger annoying sibling you but up with so you could stay close to lily and then you betrayed her too" I couldn't help but yell. He deserved to be dragged off his high horse. "Actions have consequences severus. They always have. You just never wanted to fess up to them. You blame others for your hardships but never face up to your hand in them. Been that way since school. You were one of them, I see it in how you cling to your arm pressing it to your side, afraid someone will see it? That they'll uncover the truth?  Don't come here and claim to me that you didn't know. I know when your special little club of deranged blood purists gathered for your updates and bosting that lestrange gave updates on my torture and interrogation. If you actually cared, if you were actually reformed you would have done my sister the solid of getting me out of there so her son didn't have to be rather by fucking petunia!"

Severus just stood there is head jaw clenched and eye fixed on me. I could feel my magic hum angrily on the surface of my skin, sparking through my hair like flames.

"I thought they'd killed you too" he whispered.

"Death would have been too kind after what they did to me and my family." I barked bitterly at him.

The greasy git just stared at me his eyes fixed on me as though he was trapped in a memory. A mixture of greif, regret and anger swimming in his black eyes. His face stuck in a meak sneer. "Don't"

"Dont what Severus? Its the truth! You knew, no you know what those bastarfs were capable of. You know what they were doing hell you were probably offered me as an award at some point or an other? Am I wrong?" His silence spoke volumes, my anger growing ten folds by his inability to own up to his mistakes, truly own up to them "I remember my fourth year, the little trap you set for me, I never forgot. I'll never forget that kind of betrayal, I maybhave been the tag along cause all you really wanted was lily to yourself, but you were my friend Severus. You were my friend and you set me to be assaulted as revenge for a stupid prank gone wrong, say what you want about the marauders, what you did was worse in my books, setbyourself up to look the victim, threatened remus education and almost, almost got caught in the cross fire of an ill taught out prank by one of them and plotted the worst kind of revenge. I was lucky then, remus and James saved me but they didn't save me from the initial beating. You claim they were capable of murder at sixteen so were you severus, so we're you and now that ignorance manipulative fool allows the likes of you near children! Innocent children! It disgusts me"