kabilang buhay キ l. heeseung

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——— SAM'S

"hello" i greeted jihoon and junkyu with a smile before entering ji's car

i sat sa likod because they are already occupying the front seats. pagka-upo ko pa lang, junkyu already handed me a burger and water

"what's this?"

"food malamang. mukha na bang bahay ang burger?" junkyu rolled his eyes playfully bago tumawa

"joke lang! kumain ka muna then inumin mo na yung gamot mo" he added and I nodded slowly

"pero may food naman siguro sa birthday na we're going to, right? baka mabusog ako" i reasoned out

jihoon looked at me from the rear mirror kasi he's driving

"kakain ka o iuuwi ka namin" he raised his eyebrows making me chuckle at umiling

"fine, ano ba laban ko sa both of you"

they laughed at nagkwentuhan na lang kami until we reached our destination.

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"you didn't tell me it's jake sim's birthday party pala!" i whispered kay jihoon na nasa side ko and kinurot siya making him wince in pain

"aray! hindi ka naman nagtanong!" he whispered back making me glare at him

"hay nako park jihoon!" i sighed at tumingin sa paligid nervously.

i'm scared to see someone. i'm scared to see him. handa na ba ako? was I ever ready to face him?

my eyes landed on the front door, and there I saw him. He's wearing a blue button down polo and some plain jeans. his hair was done with some few strands left on his forehead. he looks...handsome.

i'm looking at him from a far. he still looks the same. tumangkad lang siya lalo but he's still heeseung. the guy I loved and still love the most.

he suddenly looked at me and we are staring at each other's eyes na parang walang makakakita sa amin. Hindi ko masabi kung what he is feeling right now dahil kahit ako, i don't know what to feel. do i need to be happy or guilty?

"heeseung!" naputol ang titigan namin when someone called his name. naglakad siya papunta sa guy, which I believe na friend niya, and didn't bother to spare a glance at me.

I sighed before resting my head sa inuupuan ko making jihoon look at me

"are you okay? sumama ba pakiramdam mo?" he asked and rested his hand on my shoulder. i rest my head on his shoulder before sighing again. now that we crossed path again, will everything be back? will we be happy again?

does he still love me?

napabuntong hininga na lang ulit ako making jihoon look at me again

"may problema ba samantha?" he asked seriously at umiling na lang ako

"nothing, sundan mo na lang si junkyu at baka nawala, kanina pa 'yun" sabi ko, avoiding the topic

"no, malaki na 'yun ka na niya 'yan" he pouted at natawa ako

"jihoon, sundan mo na" he sighed bago tumayo at hinanap na si junkyu na kanina pa nawawala

my smile faded at tumingin ulit sa paligid to find hee. I saw him sitting on the couch near mine.

i don't know what to do! i wanted to run away from him but my feet betrayed me. i was walking towards him and I don't know why!! samantha, snap out of it! why are you walking to the guy you left for two years?!

napatigil siya sa paglalaro sa phone niya when he saw me. nakita ko ang gulat sa mata niya pero it was instantly replaced by a cold expression

he didn't utter a word and the next thing I knew, he left me there. pero parang hindi ako nakuntento, I still followed him and we ended up sa balcony.

"samantha.." he uttered pero walang kahit anong emosyon sa boses niya. he just stated my name plainly unlike before..

"heeseung, can we talk...?" i managed to say

hindi siya nagulat sa sinabi ko na para bang alam na niya na yun ang sasabihin ko.

"busy ako" he was about to walk away pero nahawakan ko siya sa may wrist niya

tumingin siya sa kamay ko kaya I instantly let go "just 5 minutes hm? just let me explain, please?"

he scoffed and looked at me. i can't even look at him sa mata because of so much guilt

"bakit ngayon lang? bakit ngayon pa na hindi ko na kailangan ng explanation mo?" parang may kumirot sa dibdib ko when he said that

"heeseung, please.."

"just walk away from me, sam. iwan mo na lang ako tutal dun ka naman magaling"