Since pearls outburst you and Saeran are trying to help her get over her fear
Which is understandable but you both just want her to know hey it's ok but Saeran will always come back
Saerans mental health is getting worse since pearls outburst, and her continued outbursts when he tries to leave, so now he's starting to blame himself more
And he can't handle doing much, like he is getting really unmotivated to do much. Like not even go to work he still does, but he's not doing the best he can
Your getting worried for him because he's not talking to you, even though you know something is wrong
And you try and get him to talk to you but he won't
"Saeran talk to me please." You say hugging him and he looks over at you wanted to cry, him hurting inside hurts you
Seeing his mental state plummet hurts you so badly
"I'm fine." Saeran says and you look up at him and shake your head and he knew he wasn't ok
"Your not Saeran, please I'm your wife talk to me." You say and Saeran picks you up and lays down on the bed with you
Saeran just hugs you tightly as he starts to cry
"Pearl is all my fault I'm so sorry, I should have gotten help I'm so selfish, I don't deserve to be alive." Saeran says and you hug him back
"Saeran you deserve to be alive, you weren't selfish you were traumatized and hurting, if I forced you to go see a doctor it would have hurt you even more, and you wouldn't be able to trust me I know it would take awhile for you to get help." You say and Saeran couldn't stop crying in your arms he hated himself so much right now
You kiss his forehead as he cries into your shirt and you hug him tightly and just hold him close to you
*I just wish Saeran would talk to me more, I want him to always come to me about every little thing I want to make sure he's happy, and if he's not I wanna know so I can help me through his emotions, because I love him so much*
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Life as Saerans wife
FanfictionBeing married to saeran has never been easy it's difficult mostly because you both fight a lot and after you both fight he leaves and stays with his brother for days or weeks but even if you both fight you both love each other more then anything
