I watched tonight's game and the Blackhawks lost 4-3. I love Tazer. But when he has a bad game, he takes everything out on me. I get that he's mad. So I try to calm him down by taking all these insults he throws at me. So tonight I plan on doing the same.
I waited outside the locker room for my boyfriend. He got out fairly quick, which was weird. He flew past me bumping shoulders with me. It hurt a little but I just shook it off.
I followed him out of the rink. I get in the passenger side and wait as he puts his gear in the trunk. I was taken back as the trunk slams. He climbs in slamming the front door too, of course.
It was silent until we got to our home. I made the worst move possible, talking.
" Are you alright ?" I try to break the silence.
" really, Y/N ? REALLY ! YOU THINK IM OK? FUCK YOUR PRETTY STUPID" it's not something I've never heard before. My dad used to talk to me and my brother like this. When Jonathan does it, it scares me more.
"Right, sorry" I say, trying to calm him down. I mean i wasn't the smartest person but, I made it through high school with flying colours.
"sometimes I wonder why I'm even with you.." He mumbled, his back turned, probably thinking I wouldn't hear it, but I did.
A tear falls down my cheek as I hear those words. " wait what " I said weakly. He always said he loved me. He went to the couch and turned on the T.V so I went upstairs to pack an over night bag. If he was second guessing this relationship then I'll just save him the decision of dumping. I love him so much, I thought he loved me. I walk down hoping he won't notice me.
I reached the end of the steps to see my love in the same spot as I left him. I walked slowly so he wouldn't notice. " Y/N? " I heard a hoarse voice say behind me.. I got chills because I could feel his toned chest on my back. I looked at my feet. " Y/N where are you going? " he asked sternly. I swallow hard. " I'm leaving. You wonder why your with me? I'll save you the stress of deciding whether or not to dump me." I say holding in the tears. I felt him grab my hand, my back still turned. " baby, I'm sorry. " I pull my hand away. " no your not..." " yes I am. If I wanted you to leave I wouldn't have stopped you. " he turned me around and stared at me. " baby, please look at me...please " he pleaded. I Looked up at him. He looked so lost and hurt. " I love you more then life itself. Your my beautiful girlfriend and soon to be wife. I want us to have a mini Toews running around. I want us to have children. If you walk away..." He had a tear on his cheek.. He was crying. It was one of the first times you've seen him cry. " I'm not walking away." You hug him tightly.
" I love you Y/N "
" I love you Jonathan Toews "
