Actors Inlove {COMPLETED}

Stay strong, Puppy!

It's already past 6:00 PM and still no news from Hanz. He lost count of the number of messages he sent and call he made. 

Tears flowing from his eyes like a child who can't find his favorite toy. 

As he said before, this is the first time he loves someone and so is the first time he encounters this kind of situation. He didn't know what to do. Hanz is not answering his call or even send a single message. 

Is it so bad to get jealous? to be afraid of losing that person you love so much? Is it wrong to feel so bad right now and to cry?

He told Ken to book him a flight back to country M but Ken didn't agree. He begs but it didn't work. 

He paces back and forth in his Master Suite room. A queen-sized bed was in the middle covered in a white sheet. The curtain of the floor-to-ceiling window is a mix of gold, red and white. Beside the window is the door to the terrace. 

Feeling suffocated, Simon walks thru the terrace door to get some fresh air. He is not in his best condition and his heart is full of worry. 

Is this what it feels like to love? Why does it hurt so much?  It's only been months but I'm hurting this much. Bao, what's happening? Why are you not answering my call? You still love me, right? You won't leave me, right?

All these questions in his head but no one can answer him now. The person he wanted to talk to so bad ignores him. 

What should I do, Hanz? I know how much you love Zi, I saw you suffer. Please don't leave.

He can only talk to himself and cry the heartache away. He can only cry in this unfamiliar place.

He stayed on the terrace for three hours, crying and feeling the cold wind. He only wears his long red sweater and his black pajama. 

After five more attempts to call Hanz, he gave up and sleep his worries away.

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The next morning, Ken took his phone to avoid him checking the internet. This is the hard part of the shoot and Simon needs to clear his mind but after all the crying last night and the cold breeze his body felt a little sore. 

He needed to shoot a scene where his partner died during the rescue operation and will have to cry out of pain but his eyes must show that he will get revenge. 

"Riz!!! No! don't leave me. I promised to hold your hands until we're old. I promised to make your coffee until you get tired of it. Why?! I promised that I will take care of you, I promised to remember every anniversary we have. I promised to remember everything you say. I promised that I will not hurt you but why? Why are you leaving me? Why, Riz? Why?!"

"Cut!" 

Still feeling the pain from what happened last night, Simon did it in one take. Pouring all his emotions into that scene. 

Everyone on the set is in awe of that heartbreaking scene by Simon. Female staff cried watching it. They snap back to reality when the director said cut.

"Very good! very good! That is a perfect cry, Simon. Let's move to the next scene." the director said with contentment.

Ken quickly assists Simon to calm down after that heavy scene. He senses that that scene was the real feelings of Simon right now. It wasn't even the original line, Simon put adlib in his lines. The things that he said to Hanz before. 

Standing up, Simon felt a little dizzy. He swayed for a minute when he walks but quickly gets his balance back.

The next scene doesn't need him yet so he can have a 15 to 30 minutes break. 

"Do you want to eat something?" Ken ask. 

Simon didn't eat his breakfast saying that he doesn't have an appetite. 

"I'm fine. Can I have my phone back?" he replied with less force on his tone.

"It's better if you don't scan your phone now. I'll tell you if he calls, don't worry."

He wanted to give his phone back but what if he reads something bad on two? He wasn't a bad person, he just wants to protect Simon's, pure heart. 

"Then, I'll take a nap."

He lacks sleep for the past month due to the jump pack schedule of shooting and photoshoot. They need to wrap up within two months and they can't extend anymore due to their contract. 

However, when he closed his eyes all he can see is Hanz smiling face. 

He remembers one time when he visits him in his home, Hanz was cooking a dumpling for his lunch. he can smell the roasted dumplings from outside the door. 

When he entered, Hanz was in a panic because of too much smoke. Simon thought that the house was on fire. 

Then, looking at the way Hanz is cooking, Simon laughs hysterically. 

"Why are y- you cooking it without an oil?" he asks while laughing so hard.

"You could also simmer the dumplings. Oh god! I can't leave you in the kitchen in the future. You will put the house on fire or you will cook poison." He's been laughing the whole time until a little moisture is seen in the corner of his eyes.

Hanz was so annoyed listening to his criticism. He thought this is the healthiest way to cook a dumpling. Oil will make you fat and if you simmer it, it will get a little mushy. No! he doesn't like that.

"Then, this handsome man will have to rely on you in the future," he said sarcastically.

But, who is Simon? He doesn't care if it's sarcastic as long as it's Hanz.

"Mmm. I will take care of everything. Go and relax now, I'll cook this so you can eat."

That was a happy memory even before they put a label on their relationship. A memory he thought that will last.

His heartthrob in pain. This is painful than yesterday and he's gasping for air because of this pain. 

He opens his eyes and looks for Ken for help. He tried to stand but halfway through it he fainted.

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A/N:

What song should I listen to for the Next Chapter? I'm deciding between Surround and the Gulf of Alaska. :)

Yes. I will write one more chapter after reading two chapters of YUWU by Meatbun. *wink.